Apple rules

2010-10-12T20:50:00.003+08:00

Just some random lines I thought of. Don't feel like putting on FB, so just post here. Nothing cheem-y coz my chinese not that good.

如果我变成天使，
我最想当他的守护天使，
陪在他身边
一辈子都不用离开，
也不会离开。
因为虽然我无法实现自己的愿望，
我也想帮他实现他的。
因为，
我爱上他了。
而我希望他永远永远不知道，
好让我能够这样继续留在他的身边。

2010-04-22T20:34:00.002+08:00

I thought I will never use this again. Feels weird to but yea. Needed some medium to speak up or my head will explode. Note that I'm supposed to study bio like now -.-

Had agm today. Last meeting for 31st council and first meeting for 32nd council. Cries. Why didn't we have certificates for our councillors? Like to thank them and all. But I guess everyone's too busy thinking about the structural changes to forget what we've done before.

Balloon game by Minzhang was quite innovative. 'cept that on my side got a bunch of yr 5s who are obviously ignoring instructions. Don't they know people are like laughing at them because they don't know how to follow the rules of the game? If council is going to consist of this kind of people I don't know how we will fare.
Then presidential elections. LOL. Yithong spoke too long. But made quite an impact. Same as the other three. Glad to see all four of them putting in effort. Knew that we could trust them(: And yea the questions siwei and kimberly asked, don't take them to heart lol. It will be a challenge we will all face in the future anyway.

Then voting. Head was hurting. Then year 6s went out count votes. Then Mr Gan talked to us. Like the times he talked to us. The things he share are always very inspiring(:

Then yr 6s came back. Did sharing. Minzhang on service, Zeming on courage and Peien on friendship. And I agreed with what they have said, especially Zeming: "True courage means that you are afraid in the first place. Like a firefighter who's afraid of dying, but he will stand out to put out the fire even though he's afraid. That's true courage." Something along that line and it's got me nodding.

Then announcement of voting results. Glad that 31st council members stood up and clap for the new president. You guys will know it tomorrow. And congratulations to all 4! Because the other three will still be vice-pres. You four need to work hard together, especially when you are all guys, should be much easier right? LOL.

Don't know why I'm crapping so many things about AGM when it's not the main reason why I decided to blog. Okay lah. It somewhat led to my reason of emo-ing down here again. I was trying to think of a new pm. When I saw the Copyright sign in my dm. Then I realised I shouldn't be using that anymore. And then I remembered that I will not need to stand in front during assembly anymore. And then I remembered I no longer had to take attendance for any meetings anymore.

It was like last year where I was bawling like a baby because I was leaving spirits into central. And now it's the same heart-breaking scene again. Plus, year 6s are leaving. Zeming, Minzhang, Peien, Zongguo. Chikan and Mabelyn, perhaps we might not see each other so often anymore. The 31st central committee will just vanish like that. Poof. Disappear.

I want to cry.

There has always been controversies about Central, how people think that we are like, not doing anything. It was hard, going through all the obstacles together, but that made Central stronger and better. I was worried when I first joined Central, because I was afraid that it will be all about work and no bonding times. I am one who needs friends, and if Central is going to be cold and unfeeling then there's going to be a big problem. But they proved me wrong. And I'm glad I listened to Zeming. I'm glad I listened to Munweng. I'm glad that I'm in Central, even if I am the only year 4 and there are so many people out there who do not believe that I am supposed to be in. I don't love Central because it is Central; I love Central because it consists of these 6 other people whom I have gotten closer to, and the friendships we forged that made us persevere in any obstacle.

Being the youngest in Central, I'm like the most immature kid. And all of them are like my parents, often taking care of me and encouraging me. Even though sometimes they are so busy that we cannot celebrate one another's birthday (which is quite sad :x ), but I guess friendships shouldn't be based on this kind of small things right?

I'm like supposed to be studying bio now but I don't feel like it. I've so much I want to say to my Central seniors but I just don't dare to because I will just start crying again. Doesn't matter much coz I'm tearing now. 31st Central will be another chapter in my life, coz there will never be another Central again. 31st Central is the last central, because it will now be called the planning committee. That's emo. that's really really emo.

Zeming, Peien, Minzhang, Zongguo, even Chikan and Mabelyn, thank you for accepting me into 31st Central and it is really a wonderful year working with you all. How I wish Central will always be around but that's just the impossible. I hope you guys don't forget the things we've done together, and of course don't forget the friendships we've forged. I'm probably the most emotional person in Central (quoted from munweng) so yea I have to remind you guys to still remember one another.

Year 6s, don't stay up so late anymore! You don't have to chiong anymore projects, now just concentrate on your studies okay? Do yourself proud and do us proud! Especially peien, don't need to worry about Council okay? Eat more drink more, don't fall sick at crucial periods! If you need a shoulder to lie on, I will still be here!

Chikan and Mabelyn, now that your level will be taking over the reins, I hope you two can teach your peers how to handle projects blahblahblah. I'm sure your experience will help them alot. And Chikan, work hard in the planning committee! Don't let us down(:

22nd April 2010. It marks the end of the 31st Central, right? No! I do hope of course you will all remember 31st Central, and of course 30th Central.(: Now I'm feeling so lost without you guys. Like when's our last meeting? I didn't even know that last meeting will be our last meeting as Central. I guessed nobody knew. Cries.

Now it's 9.11pm. I still have one more chapter to study for bio. But I am missing Central too much to care about bio. 31st Central will always be around, won't it?

Who am I kidding?

Goodbye Central. Cries.
I love you guys! Cries badly.

2010-01-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

Lols.
I totally got stuck at typing my username and password at blogger homepage.
2 months hiatus? Or perhaps more.
I have no interest in blogging anymore.
Does that show that I've matured?
Blogging just reminds me of unhappy stuff.
And when people actually blog they aren't able to express their true feelings coz they know someone's out there reading it.
So what's the point of calling it an online diary?
It should be like a gossip page.
Where people only write interesting things that they know.
Anyone who wants to maintain a high number of readers visiting their blog will never ever post boring stuff like regurgitating what you did everyday.
Which was what I did the last few years.
Felt stupid looking at those things that I've posted.
How many hours did I waste brooding over unhappy stuff?
Haha.
Anyway now it's all over(:

And I won't be blogging anymore. Most likely. I won't delete this blog. So when I feel like then I'll blog. But I'll perhaps blog on, you know, politics and stuff, so that like what Ms Jin said, I may be able to get some great award from the government.
:D

Farewell.

2009-10-13T21:32:00.002+08:00

Hiatus for so long le.
Suddenly I don't feel like I actually own a blog.
Haha.
EOYs are finally over!!!
But after mugging for so many days, the sudden feeling of NO MORE MUGGING is ... empty :x
Although we'll start mugging soon all over again.
Sometimes I wished we don't stop.
Mug hard then stop then mug hard again then stop.
Is just a vicious cycle.
Yawns. And it seems like we can't stop till we get into the workforce.
But the workforce is worse.
No time to rest. You keep "mugging" everyday.
Sometimes I don't wish to grow up.
Haha that's ridiculous lah, but I don't ever feel like being an adult.

Before exams, everything suspended for us to mug.
Now everything comes back like a tsunami. ( -.- )
Have so so so many things to do. And haix.
Today I SLACKED the whole day watching youtube. With the thought that this is probably one of the last few times I can be like that. For this year lah. Haha.

Anyway yesterday went kbox.
After CID exam.
One word: Shuang.
Sang three and a half hours straight.
Actually, screamed most of the time.
You know, like jumping on the sofa and screaming your head off?
And like 5 crazy girls doing that when next door is a bunch of 2A-ians?
Haha!
Yea alot of RV-IANS GO TO KBOX DE.
And that whole bunch kinda recognised us ah oops :x
But who cares.
Most importantly, at the end of the three.five hours everyone was almost dead except me and zimin.
Muahaha.
You know what's the best part about going kbox with your darlings?
When you "zao xiang" (zou yin) or sing out of tune you don't have to feel embarrassed(:
Love you darlings muacks muacks! :D

Starting tomorrow, everything goes back to normal.
No more going home early. Haix.
No more only worrying for one subject per day. Haix.
No more things to keep my mind off stuff. Haix.
Actually no lah. GOT MUCH MORE THINGS NOW TO KEEP MY MIND FOCUSED.
Focus focus focus focus. :D

P-P-P-Pokerface P-P-Pokerface.
Random!!
Hehe.

Yawns. I'm beat. Sat in front of my laptop for the whole day.
Oh. Shun bian wish my brother good luck for his exams(:

JOVI LOO AND SEE MING HONG YOU TWO STILL OWE ME ONE ADIDAS WATERBOTTLE!!!!
SEE MING HONG YOU OWE ME ONE KINDER BRUENO :P

LALALALALALALALA.

2009-09-22T18:55:00.001+08:00

Can I start hating you now?
Sometimes I wish I can't feel anything.

What do you want me to do now?

Jiayou for all for EOYs.

2009-08-28T10:57:00.002+08:00

Just realised this is the 201st post.
Still stuck at IMCB.
But quite fun lahhs hehe.
Slacking now obviously..
But for the past three days have been experimenting with zebrafish embryos!
With zoenin and vivian of course(:
Miss the class a lot. Doubt they'll miss me though.
Nah not emo-ing.
Just questioning my existance here(:

Is that a good thing?
Nah I guess not.
But who cares?
Not everyone else.
But me.

I miss council alotalot. Maybe after what we've been through during investiture.
And guides of course! Today's fashion parade ahh!! And I'm missing it OMG.
Sighs.
And.. NOTHING.
Nothing else to say le lah.
Just that I'm very stressed up now.
Keep doing the wrong things and saying the wrong stuff to the wrong people.
Like one touch will make me snap. Like soon. OMG.
I'm sorry for being so sarcastic nowadays. (to a certain someone)
Sorry ah! You should know my plight anyway ><

Is this my normal life?

2009-08-27T13:38:00.003+08:00

Priscilla loves council.
Priscilla loves guides.
Priscilla's slacking at IMCB now.
Priscilla misses school.
Priscilla wants to go back.
Priscilla misses council.
Priscilla misses SC room.
Priscilla misses her fellow guides.
Priscilla doesn't know what else to say.
Priscilla sees Vivian and Zoenin using Facebook.
Priscilla is bored.
Priscilla is feeling random now.
Priscilla feels like stopping.
Priscilla shall stop now.

Btw, Priscilla misses him. A lot.

2009-08-23T13:00:00.003+08:00

Things happening for rest of Term 3:

Council Investiture
Teachers' day
Attachment
Physics Test
Lang Arts Test
Bio SPA

How many weeks left in Term 3?
Two.

Is it a blessing that Physics Test, Lang Arts Test and Council Investiture clashes with my attachment?
Hmms.
No. -.-
At least I can pon attachment for awhile to go SC investiture.
But wad? Physics test to be taken after Teachers' day celebration?
Yays.
Lang Arts test to be taken on tues??
Yays.
God bless me (:

Been feeling down these days.
Stop circulating that rumour or whatever that is please.
I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND GRRR.
There is something known as a PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP.
-.-
I guess I'll never get to have a normal life is it?
That's sad.

2009-08-08T17:02:00.000+08:00

Ahahaha oops.
Looks like blog's dead again.

Quite a number of things happen?
First of all happy national day eve ^^
And for today, happy birthday to Jun Tang!
And for tomorrow, happy birthday to Tiantian!

Well, this is probably one of the rarest times I will be able to post le.
EOYs coming... YES IT'S COMING OKAY. IT'S GONNA BE DAMN SOON.
And erms, just had council AGM yesterday.
Cried for the whole day coz leaving spirits.
I'll really miss you guys omg D;
We did so much together. And though some of us are going our separate ways,
I hope Spirits will still stay together.
I literally cried the whole day. In class, after school, during agm.
After dinner. -.-
Totally embarrassed myself OMG. But who cares? Not like nobody's seen me cry before. -.-

Anyway, weird way to announce it but, I'm the secretary, with mabelyn.
Guides don't kill me please.
I promise to prioritise properly okay.
I know what I am doing ><
Anyway laoda's department head. Congrats haha.
And congrats to everyone who's exco. Well done ^^

Not enough time le. GTG.
I seriously look weird with red rings.
And the blue ones are coming.
Oh no.
I feel rocks on my shoulders.
Careful not to break. 0.0

2009-07-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

Okay. Dots. My blog's dead.
But okay today got quite a bit to post XD

First of all, sighs.
The day has finally come where the Year 4s step down. (LAST FRIDAY I MEAN.)
And the day has finally come where we Year 3s took over.
Well, I think for most of us, both Year 3s and 4s, it's dreadful.
For the Year 4s it's because they won't be involved in guides anymore.
For the Year 3s, well, because it does kinda seem so fast. Like yesterday we just came into guides and now we take over.
And now, they won't be in our acts anymore. I'm sure all of us will miss them dearly ); After all, we've been through a lot of things together.
Yea, and the day has finally come where the main comm is not the 4 seniors but the 4 of us.
Amanda, me, yiyao, sirui.
I really hope that we, along with the rest of the comm members, will be able to work together to overcome all odds and work together to bring guides to greater heights.
I believe we can do it. I believe in guides. We can do it. Together(:
Guides FTW~!

Secondly, NDP parade!
Feel so bad to like "snatch" the flag-raiser position from Jieying.
Ahhs but it's the last year I'm in NDP parade (although there's no contigent 0.0) and I get to be with 4 3A people!
Haha. Vivian, ongmin, kengleng, jovi. :D
They are the flag-bearers. Lol.
Me flag-raiser. LOL.
Like during rehearsals I (and teck chye) will be like just standing down there. Calefare lah.
Zzz. Then they all so hiong and sweating like that.
Jiayou guys! :D And of course jiayou amanda too ^^ And everyone else involved :D
The viewers will only be Year 3. SO COOL RIGHT?!
AHAHAHAHA. But a bit empty horh? Lol.

I realise there's nothing to say le. lols.
Oh yea!
I fell sick on thurs.
Lol random but.
Yea.
So scary can. The night before keep waking up and couldn't go to sleep.
Whole body feeling very tired and awful.
Then morning wake up eyesight very dark.
As in, greyish de leh. So scary right? And not because it's early in the morning. 0.0
Then ears blocked, like going to faint.
Then realised temperature 39.4 and couldnt go to school.
LOL.
And I was supposed to take physics test eh.
But ahya not important :p
Ahaha sorry mr tan :D

2009-07-16T21:33:00.002+08:00

Just felt really bored. So kinda posted on class blog(s).
And now it's here(;

Told Jiarui I would post this LOL.
A ridiculous "inspiration" from the CHAMPS lesson of Racial Harmony(:

The Singapore Quilt

Maria Hertorgh Case. 1956 Student Riots. Konfrontasi. 1956 Common Riots.
The rude awakenings.
What have we got?
What have we learnt?

4 different races.
Chinese, Malays, Indians, Others.
4 different backgrounds.
4 different cultures.
But through it all,
We've made it strong.
What others couldn't do,
We've shown them all.
The mistakes we made,
The consequences we faced.
No one understands better,
Than us Singapore people.
A multi-racial society,
Seems so strong but so weak.
Nothing is for granted,
If only we could see.
It takes just a little spark,
To set the fire ablaze.
But imagine how much water is needed,
to put the fire out.
What about the debris left,
the emotional scars that stayed.
We need to work hand in hand
to maintain this peaceful society.
This is a cliche but
we all need to play a part.
A little needle,
threads of peace.
The Singapore Quilt,
what we must achieve.

-End-

I think..I'm...ridiculous.
Come out with such stuff.
Shows CHAMPS lessons sometimes do help ( ALITTLE!)
Ahahaha.

In chemistry lessons we had to each come up with a "I-donno-what-you-call-it" so as to memorise the reactivity series.

Kristin's (K)
Nagging (Na)
Can (Ca)
Make (Mg)
A (Al)
Zestful (Zn)
Friend (Fe)
Stop (Sn)
Playing and (Pb)
Come (Cu)
Home (Hg)
As soon (Ag)
As possible. (Au)

I think i rock :p
That was so not me LOL.
Wanted to put Kengleng's name there de, but don't want to read it out in front of the class so changed to Kristin's.
But I'll still use his name.
Easier to remember LOL.
It's not like he will know anyway since he doesn't come here :p

Ciao!

2009-07-07T18:11:00.002+08:00

KBOX ROCKS.
Like a stone lol.
No lah kidding(: Had my eyes on that kbox at jurong safra ever since we went there guang4 guang4 for the first time. Like omg finally we went there yesterday. Me carissa onghuiying cyn.
YAYS!
It's youth day, and we're celebrating it with singing(: I'm seriously thinking that kbox's addictive. Like I'm dying to go there again omigosh haha. (Goh) Xinyi and I probably going again on 8th August YAYS!
3 hours+ of singing plus lunch plus drinks = 13 bucks each person.
TOTALLY WORTH IT.
And I don't know why they don't like the udon (is it udon??) when I think it's the nicest of all :P
Lols. I have totally weird taste. But I don't like that sushi >< Okay now I'm totally not making sense to any of you since you don't know what we ate HAHA. I'm feeling very random now. And very angry with carissa (joking haha) coz I cannot kope the pictures.
So here I am giving her FREE PUBLICITY for her blog. Carissa, must thank me seh :P Go view her blog for kbox pictures! :D

http://smouldering-dreams.blogspot.com/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7UamGAK4GGs&feature=player_embedded

30 seconds+ video on us saying wu ding. Damn ridiculous LOL.
Anyway the people holding the mike is cyn and huiying. BUT YOU STILL CAN HEAR MY VOICE.
I'M LOUD.
LOL.

I WANT TO GO KBOX OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!
(:

Anyway, happy birthday to jacky(: [It was yesterday haha.]

2009-06-17T11:08:00.008+08:00

Promised to post yesterday. Ps ahhs. Was watching DVDs and doing homework haha.
Okay. Hmms.
Went to watch movie on monday. Ghosts of Girlfriends' past. Hahaha.
With carissa and huiying. Weird combination right? But it's okay ^^
In fact quite fun. :D
The movie was great. About love LOL.
And after that we went to jurong safra to have a look.
THERE IS A KBOX DOWN THERE!!!!
Goh xinyi if you happen to read this, I'm waiting for the next KBOX session with you!! -.-
Hahaha random but anyways, took some pictures! :D
And my face looks big. 0.0 BECAUSE my face is the nearest to the camera haha.

We are like sitting in this little boat in the middle of nowhere. There you see the picture below?

Just skip the next picture GAWD. I don't even know why I'm laughing while zi-paiING. Must be something huiying said. I need my braces!

And there, we were like slacking on the beanbags. Almost couldn't get up LOL. This place is in the kidsAMAZE. Something like that. Like the one at Downtown east. Damn cool ah!! :D

Outside the carpark. SIAO RIGHT?! Carpark also do until so nice 0.0

Still outside carpark 0.0 Wonder how much money they invested in this building.

And there you go! ^^

Btw, I just have to say this...

We met someone I don't want to see at KidsAMAZE.

Zzzz. And I majorly over-reacted. Like ran to hide behind the pillar. Ah LOL.

Now carissa knows about him. Thanks to onghuiying. But it's okay since he's not in RV. :P

P.S. He still looks cute. ><>

While typing this post I was thinking about the things I want.

Lols.

As in, I want my parents to get me.

First, my Mac notebook.

Second, Braces!

Third, my guzheng!

Lols. All at least 3-digit sum. I am such a spendthrift.

But ehhs. All of them are for practical use can?

Haha.

Now yes933 playing gao xiao. By LUOZHIXIANG.

Haix.

Another song which depicts my life. Zzzz.

Sayonara!

2009-06-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

Yawns. Priscilla's blogging with half-eyes closed. Although she doesn't know how she actually does this and it's only 9.55 pm.
And yays, WHO finally declares H1N1 as a pandemic.
Nothing to be happy about though. Sighs.
Holidays suck. Bigtime.
Except maybe for the SLC and the going out with friends/family part.
And June Holidays hold bad memories. Real bad.

Wait I promise to blog about SLC. And I shall (:
Okay, it's just short term for Student Leaders' Convention. Waa. Sounds damn chim right? Haha.
When I first heard about it it sounds kinda dry and boring and long and something adults do, not us teenagers.
Boy, I was wrong.
It's like the best 4 days get-together of student leaders in my whole entire life.
Probably it is the only one but...that's not the point. Haha.
Me, kimberly, zisiang, shirley, weiliang and alicia. 6 RV-ians to join this 15th SLC as facilitators.
WOW.
And best part is, it's at hwachong! 0.0
Ahahaha. :P
The facilitators' briefings were.. okay. The OT (organising team) were damn scary.
Especially the Organising Secretary Audre.
SMS him to confirm something horh, his reply super formal and kinda cold to me. Lols.
Unexpected lah. But it's okay. Haha.
Anyway, that's not the point. Point is, after the few briefings, you can actually feel that tense atmosphere? That everyone is waiting with bated breath for the first day of 15th SLC to arrive.
0.0
First day. Wow.
I totally adore my group.
LEONIS! <3
I am so goddamn lucky to have such zihigh and friendly and enthu people in my group. It's like we play 2-3 icebreakers then don't want play liao. Coz we already made friends with one another already! :D
Then I gave them time to do a cheer. And waa did I say I love them? Their cheer was great! <3
"Leonis, I say you number 1, number 1!
1, we are from Leonis!
2, we still can't hear you!
3, it's getting louder!
4, still not enough!
We will win the war, win the war, win the war!
Ehh... LEONIS!"
Ahahaha. I love Leonis! <3
Ohh. Should introduce them to you all right?

Leonis
Abigail!
Ariel!
Beatrice!
Daniel!
Ghee Kian!
Jonavan!
Khairiyani!
Khairul!
Nicholas!
Priscilla!
Rifdi!
Xiao Jun!
And me, Priscilla!

Yea alot of familiar names right??
Like Abigail, Daniel, Nicholas and omigosh PRISCILLA.
And her surname is like TEH (Same pronounciation!!!!! 0.0)
And she is Year 3 too!! And she's from guides!!!
OMG we are like totally alike!! 0.0
Haha, sorry. Over-reacting. Oh dear. LMAO.
Anyway we were like freaking bonded by the end of lunch. :D
And during the games...they were like damn enthu! I LOVE LEONIS! <333

2nd day was very long and dry.
But time spent with Leonis was wonderful.
And I made more friends with the facils. Like songsim? Hahaha. He's one funny guy.
But Leonis and Pegasi (his faculty) says we are flirting -.-
Zzzz. Just feel his character abit like cheeyewhui's mah. That's why can get along well haha.
:P
And we were like chiong-ing the action paper LOL. Then songsim came in and asked Leonis if I was a nice facil, and they were like screaming "Yes"!!! Lols. So gandong. But don't know if they are being sarcastic or not, because wow, we can also call Leonis the "Sarca faculty". All so sarcastic de. Like me!! :D
They took the meetings quite well though. Just that they are more quiet. Shows that they prefer playing ahahahaha. :P I don't mind.
Third day was about the same, with the meetings and everything. Just that the feeling of dread arrived. Because I knew that the next day was the last day of 15th SLC, and I cannot accompany Leonis but I have to rush for guides' campfire.

4th day.
Everyone was acting kinda funny.
Tried my best to remain normal and everything.
But I know, and Leonis knows, that I will be leaving during lunch.
Prepared some stuff for them. Hope they like it.
After the meeting and closing ceremony, lunchtime finally arrived.
It was really dreadful.
Tried my best not to cry ehh.
Told them I will be leaving, they give me those weird expressions.
Then tried to hold me back so they could do a cheer for me.
Erms they wanted it as a surprise, but I already saw through it lol.
And tried to run away, because I was afraid I can't control my own emotions.
But they did the cheer, and I didn't cried. Instead I was really happy.
Because I knew, at that point of time, we really were friends. (:
And with that, I left hwachong. On a happy note.

And since I'm already here, I might as well talk about guides <3
Being emcee is seriously stressful.
Like when I reached school, I started crying.
Partly because I missed Leonis and hwachong, and also that in a few hours I have to go up on stage.
Every guide is already feeling that tension. That atmosphere.
And the preparation period kinda suck a lot.
Because so many problems cropped up.
And I felt them guilty. Because I wasn't really there to support everyone else and really help out in this.
Because a good campfire requires every guide to put in their utmost effort.
With that, I apologise to my whole company):
Then that's where I realise how much I love guides.
Sorry. Used a lot of "love" in my post today haha 0.0
But anyway, the emcee-ing was okay.
Some impromptu, but overall not bad.
Thanks for everyone's hard work! :D

Okay. I think I should stop here.
It's getting late, dark outside.
Lols. BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY.
Waa totally random 0.0
Will post again tomorrow I promise./
For carissa! haha.

Just post alittle more ahhs.
These few days feeling really really emo.
Like, peak.
It's been about half a year already.
And more than one year since I've fallen in love with you.
But we belong to two different worlds.
That can never be brought together.
And this means that though I'm like crazily in love with you I will painfully let you go.
Because you won't be happy even if you're with me.
And for your happiness, I'm willing to go through the pain.

Who says one can't experience love when young huh?
Lols.
I can't believe I just wrote all those.
Sighs.

Byes.

2009-06-02T21:42:00.003+08:00

192(:

Things have gone really really crazy nowadays.
I said in my previous post that I won't be posting because I probably don't have nothing much to post?
And now what, Murphy's law?
So many things to do that I have no time to post.
Let's see.

1. Results
Okay. Fine. I shall say. Results are good. Seriously not what I had expected. I expected a 3.6, who knows BAM! Give me such a high grade. Seriously not my fault ahh people. Anyone dares to tease me about my results again will suffer. Lols. I mean, come on. Look at me. People who know how busy I am sure won't believe de right? How can she, doing so many things at the same time, get so high? Even I myself don't get it. So people, if I happen to drop next term, it's actually NORMAL for a girl like ME.

2. Guides
Nothing actually. Just that being the emcee is really stressful especially you are one who can't SING. I mean like literally. I can't sing! I am tone-deaf, goes out of tune, and now I have to lead people in cheers. AND SINGING.
Yays for me people. Yays for Priscilla who is so gonna lose her face though she is so gonna enjoy herself.

3. Student Council
Waa seh. This is like, KARMA?! I must have been a really slackish person in my previous life that I am so busy in this life. SLC (tttl), Review comm, ReVel fest, SC interview.
Basically spells one thing: BUSY.
I'm not complaining about the stuff I have to do, you know. Seriously, not. I am just complaining about my general life. You might think I'm crazy, coz even if I complain, I actually like that.
CRAZY.
But here's something wonderful: SKM cheerfest!
WE GOT THIRD!!! THIRD!!
SO goddamn happy.
This is our first time, and we actually got a third.
That's like WOW!
Hehehe. ^^
That was the happy part until Felicia and Nicholine started crying.
Zzz.
If you think I'm emo and think too much, wait till you look at them.
Wow.
Priscilla: Why are you people crying? Should be happy what.
Felicia: Coz' Spirits is going to be separated soon.

Then I cried.
Not because Spirits is going to be separated,
But the fact that it is so frighteningly true.
And we can't do anything to prevent it.

Shan't be emo in this post.
I have a lot more to post.
Especially about SLC(:
But I shall do that next time.
Coz right now I need my sleep.
Or I will die of exhaustion!
AHH!

2009-05-20T19:47:00.002+08:00

Like, post 191?
Lols.
Someone was supposed to help me update this blog but that somebody's so lazy. :p

Okay.
Hmms.
School's normal.
Nothing much to blog about, really.
Got alot of stuff at hand.
SLC, review committee, cheering competition, emcee for campfire...
Yea I'm the emcee for our guides campfire.
-SHOCKS-
LOLS.
With yiyao and qingyi HAHA.
Hope can do it well and do guides proud.
MAJOR STRESS.
Haha.
Not like I haven't had this feeling before.

Seriously got nothing to say.
Nowadays seriously don't feel like blogging.
No reason to, probably.

So, signing off!
If you ever happen to drop by,
just leave a tag.
Must horh.
Haha :p

2009-05-12T15:13:00.002+08:00

Today's a tiring day.
Lols.
Something we always hear in 3A. (especially from juntang -.-)
Finally exams are over.
Suddenly feel nostalgic.
Don't want to elaborate.
Lols.

SC elections are here.
And deadline's this friday.
Most of the councillors I know (in yr 3) are quitting.
Sighs.
At first I was thinking about writing a long post on how I feel about this "great" phenomenon that most of the people who quit always come from year 3,
but I decide not to.
Or maybe I shall.
Lols.
It kinda hurts when you hear your close SC-friends quitting council.
Not that I am blaming them because most of them probably can't adjust to the stress.
Then now I feel so alone in the council.
Coz people whom I'm close to are going to be gone.
Deeply saddened.
Because the council won't be what it is today if not for you guys.
When I ask someone if he/she is quitting council,
I get a very happy nod.
Which leads me to thinking,
you seem like you have finally got rid of a burden.
If council is considered a burden to you, why join in the first place?
After we alighted from the 243, huiying asked me what I wrote for my composition, which coincidentally was about what a student leader should possess.
The first thing that come to my mind?
Sacrifice.
Without sacrifice, there won't be any place for commitment.
Without sacrifice, you can't assume great responsibility.
Sacrifice is a very big word you know.
You sacrifice your shopping time, tv time, outing time, even sleeping time, in order to complete SC duties.
It is definitely not easy.
You think standing on the platform in morning assemblies being high and cheering like crazy when no one down stage actually cares is easy?
When people are probably laughing at your face saying how retarded you look?
I even have people saying I look stupid up there. Which hurts. A lot.
Look,
the council is for the students.
What the council does is for the students.
I am not actually accusing the students but hey,
the council probably end up like this because of you guys who aren't willing to give us a chance.
Because of you guys who think we are useless therefore leading to us being demoralised.
Come on,
I probably think those SCs who quit council will probably start talking bad about us behind our backs.
You can't just sit down there and shake your legs and expect some major change to happen to the school.
A school's still a school.
Rules have to be there.
You can't expect the school to be a shopping centre right?
The council is there to make sure school life's at least, not boring.
The council ain't led by Hitler you know.
You can't expect us to dominate the school and make school life as interesting as you like.
"I will change your school life and make it interesting".
Come on, how many times have you heard that over the years?
And has your school life really changed a lot?
A LOT?
Nah you gotta be kidding me.
What we can guarantee is that school life won't be bad. Will be acceptable. Will stay status quo and may even be slightly better.
If you don't give the council a chance,
I guess the student councillors won't give themselves the chance to try either.
Being a SC is really hard.
You have to risk your friends talking bad about you coz you are just too guai.
You have to risk being called a teachers' pet.
You have to risk being a laughingstock.
It is seriously not easy.
Sighs.

Okay the above was,
just the emotional side of me taking over yea?
Coz I am really really tired. As in, drained out.
Feeling sleepy yawns.
So tendency to think ALOT.
Yea?
Haix.
I hope people who come to read my blog actually understands how I really feel ahs.
):

2009-05-02T21:55:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to me(:
Thanks to all who made my birthday a pleasant one.
Especially those who sms-ed me a few minutes after midnight.
But it's probably because you people are busy mugging.
LOL.
Didn't expect the first person to sms me was _____.
Unbelievable seh. It's a guy lah. Duh.
LOL.
Okay enough of this crap.
Dedicate this portion of my post to onghuiying.
Thanks for the mega present!! (:
But I got no place to keep it 0.0
But I STILL LOVE YOU HAHA.
THANKYOU MUACKS(:

Birthday wishes:
1. _________________
2. _________________
3. _________________

Normally I would say my birthday wishes out, but they always don't come true.
So this time, I shan't say it out.
Just to tell you I have 3 wishes.
Hope they will come true.

Lastly,
this birthday girl over here wishes all who come to my blog good luck for MYE!!

Love's in the air heeheee(:

2009-04-28T22:05:00.002+08:00

Today's crying day.
Cried in school. And at home.

First reason: My watch. ):
It was from my mother and I really really loved it. Who knows how the hell the buckle loosen and as I flung my hand over the railing, it commited suicide.
$10!! $10 down the drain >< and it was one of the nicest watch I had ): And it was only 2 days old.
WTF.
It's not about the money actually.
But it's something from my mom and I actually spoilt it.
I feel damn guilty, then cried during geog.
Sighs.

Second reason: Friends (:
Happy face means something good lah.
After physics make-up, went to 3C classroom.
To collect my birthday present LOL.
From shieuhuei, tiantian, meiwen, enting and jiani.
Thank you my darlings <3
I really love the presents.
Especially the book.
And that's where the crying part came in. Coz too touched already.
Seriously, made me believe my birthday won't be as bad as I thought it will be.
Thank you girls. Really appreciate all you have done for me. ((:
Thank you <3

(P.S. Regarding tiantian's note: Yea I found him but it wasn't meant to be :p )

Third reason: Dad
No lah. He didn't scold me or anything.
He asked me what I wanted for my birthday.
Then I thought of some unhappy stuff that happened yesterday night and a piece of shocking news I heard,
I felt like crying.
Then rushed to the toilet coz can't possibly let my dad see or he will freak out.
Then cried.
Sighs.
Can I not have anything on my birthday?
I just want to be with my family.
You guys are all that matter to me. Not presents.

Just watched last episode of table of glory.
Felt like crying during the part where Ah wu got accused.
What is Jiajun's freaking problem lah.
And Xiaofen.
Is she a retard or what. Can't see there's someone waiting for her while she's busily admiring some other people.
Imagine the hurt Ah wu got when he saw the two of them kissing.
And somemore Ahwu likes to bottle up his feelings.
It must have hurt a lot ):
And him losing all the fun in table tennis. Sighs.

But when I saw the ending, I felt like slapping the director.
Thanks lah, end so abruptly.
Yea great so now we know he isn't going to give up pingpang.
So what?
There better be a table of glory 2.
So many things never jiao1 dai4 properly then end liao.
What, new characteristic of channel 8 drama serials?
Then I think I better sell my television away.

Kidding.

4 more days to my birthday.
I feel a sense of dread instead.
And it's not because of MYE.

Sighs.

2009-04-24T19:49:00.002+08:00

I am going against my principles of blogging since exams are coming.
BUt who cares?
Kidding. MYE is seriously damn important.
Everyone else has started mugging but I haven't.
Yea duh. For those who don't know yet, I am the kind-who-prefers-paying-attention-in-class-than-last-min-revision.
So I will be able to remember everything easily by just flipping through the notes.
This method kinda works for the past few exams (evidently).
Confident that it will work for this exam too, at least until this morning.
Where I shared my ingenious method with munweng,
and she said it doesn't work anymore in YEAR 5.
That really breaks my heart yea?
LOL.
So I guess I have to restart!
Sad...

The above was just lame shyt.
Coz have been feeling weird these days.
Like "pre-birthday syndrome".
Got this gut feeling that this birthday won't be as nice as last year's. DUH.
Different group of people now.
Lols.
Nvm. I don't expect much anyway.
Looking forward to next year's one though.
No reason why.
Just feel that it will be much happier.

School's normal.
Occasional crying now and then (most recent being yesterday)
Occasional emoness, Occasional bumping with people I don't want to see, Occasional highness.
Lols.
My everyday life has become no-life.
Nah kidding.

Sometimes I think back about the past year and the various events that happen.
Then I ask myself if I have ever regretted anything I had done before.
And I said "No".
Coz I chose my own path and I know I will bear my own consequences.
Which leads me to my next sentence.
I am running for the 31st council elections.

~~Since I guess I won't get anything in guides which will make me ultra-stressed.~~

Hope my friends will support me. Thx.

2009-04-19T20:51:00.003+08:00

I don't know what I am thinking.
In fact, I don't want to know what I am thinking.

Anyway, saturday was a looong day.
Had batik painting course in the morning.
Love my own piece of artwork haha. I realised I have a flair for batik. Lols kidding!
Sat 57 from bishan all the way back to rv.
Had brain teaser games with onghuiying and foozimin.
Don't why started emo-ing halfway.
Then the two of them fell asleep. Well at least for zimin. -.-
Then I was left there. Thoughtful.
Just thinking about life and singing to my hearts' content. Well, mouthing the lyrics to be exact.
1 and a half hour's bus ride.
Significant.

Reached rv around 2. Started getting high again.
Well, gradually.
Scouts preparing for their campfire.
Then us trio were like playing at the netball court lols.
Fun (: but something keeps bugging me and I don't know what.
Tried to complete homework but in the end only managed to do book review.
Aww.
But the two of them almost dozed off again.
I didnt (:
Coz mind was preoccupied.
Went queensway to eat dinner.
Was abit pissed by the two of them coz of the stuff they said.
But I forgive them anyway. :p
Had a stomachache but was fine after that.
Then went back to school.

Campfire started. Damn cool.
Congrats scouts. Well done (:
zihao danced damn well.
And kl was damn cute haha.
Can be on par with our dance liao lah :p haha kidding.
But time passed by so fast ><
Hope our campfire can be as good as theirs or even better. :D

Emo-ed the whole day today.
I don't want to say this,
but why doesn't anyone believe me?
When I say "no", I really mean no.
Why would I lie about my own feelings?
I once minded how people looked at me.
But now,
I don't care.
Coz now,
I can't even believe myself.
My own feelings.
They seem so distant.

Heard from friends that they were glad to see my blog posts happy and lively.
But too bad things don't stay the same way for too long.
A Priscilla can't change her character.
Emo is me.
I am emo.
Sighs.

2009-04-15T21:18:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday yuyan darling! (:

Casaba
Casabas are round or oval melons with yellow or orange skin that is green at the ends. The flesh is creamy white.

http://www.naturesbounty.com/vf/healthnotes/HN77/HN77_English/Food_Guide/Melons.htm

OMG Prince Casaba is supposed to be Prince Melon. LOLS.
BTW he's my favourite comic character now.
Coz he is so shuai4.
:p
I want my Prince Casaba too haha. XD
And MUMU!!!!

This week no tests.
I feel...empty.
Damn gl; tests come all at once then suddenly no more.
I rather they do it like regularly.
Haha.
The stress just hit me like, now.
2 more weeks.
Sighs.
And here I am still blogging.
And thinking of seeing pingpang yuan.
LOLS.
Errs. I am such a slacker.
Slaps moi.
:p

I am not going to have a very nice birthday I think.
Coz it's on a saturday.
And nobody will be willing to go out with me to celebrate my birthday.
Not that I am blaming you all. Seriously not blaming I swear.
Just my ill luck I have such a nice birthdate.
Actually it's seriously quite nice. XD
But that doesn't mean those who know my birthday don't need to wish me happy birthday horh.
No lah kidding (:
But ohy must give me my present :P
17 more days!!!

2009-04-13T21:10:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday cyrus!
Happy birthday kimberly!
:D

I think I know what I want for my birthday present.
I want 姆姆！！
It is so kawaii (((:
Do you know what is it?
Apparently it is supposed to be a dolphin? In Superstar Express.
It's given to Mars by his first fan LOL.
Mars so cute. So is his soft toy.
"我们是父子哦！”
LOLS.
I want that toy!!! I saw fahrenheit fans holding those toys during CSS, where fahrenheit was the guest star.
Where they buy de OMG I WANT.
I think I fell in love with it.
Well I have a tendency to fall in love with soft toys.
:p
I also loving fahrenheit more and more!
They seriously improved alot from previous albums.
I can't stand it when they keep comparing fahrenheit with bangbangtang.
To each his own can.
Both are equally good, though I love fahrenheit more.
So don't suan fahrenheit in front of me again. Or I dao you :p
They rock can!! ((:
And don't ever insult the shows they act in, coz I will be pissed off and who knows I will dao you too. :p
I love fahrenheit!
And 姆姆~

Go listen to 越来越爱, 寂寞暴走, 默默 and 留下来！！
Now they rock my life :p

I love the new me. Better than emo-ing over random people.
Ahahaha!

2009-04-05T14:20:00.002+08:00

I LOVE PTM!
I LOVE SHIEUHUEI!
I LOVE ENTING!
I LOVE TIANTIAN!
I LOVE EVERYONE!!!
Hahaha.
PTM SO DAMN FUN (:
Although tiring. Sighs.
But I would like to thank everyone who helped out in ptm or encourage me on or whatever blahblahblah.
I THANK YOU ALL!!
Oops zihighing now.
Errs.
Special thanks to SEBASTIAN, YIMING, JUNIANTI, SHIEUHUEI, ENTING, AND TIANTIAN.
And everybody else!!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
For helping out (:
Escpecially SH, ET AND TT.
For accompanying me on friday (:
And et for giving me songs and helping me when i was like BLUR SOTONG. 0.0
THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!!
I LOVE PTM!

I feel like doing ptm again and again LOLS.
But don't let it be on cca days anymore ><
I miss guides!! ):
But I can go back to cca le heehee.
First time in many days I am zihighing.
Coz sh and et lah.
Spam my tagboard.
SIAO EHHS.
BUT I DON'T MIND AHAHAHAHA.

PRISCILLA LOVES YOU ALL!
THANKS!!

:D

2009-03-23T20:57:00.001+08:00

Just when I needed you by my side the most,
You are gone.

Can you comfort me?
I feel...lost.
Will thinking about you let me find my way out?

2009-03-19T09:29:00.003+08:00

Won't be posting for awhile.
Yea yea though it's the break but ironic that I'm busier during breaks haha.
Don't miss me.
I mean it.

Priscilla loves you (:

P.S. If you do come pls continue to tag ty. :P

2009-03-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

Post 180.
Well done Priscilla.

Today's my dad's and cousin Zann's birthday.
Happy birthday to my two loved ones (:
Sorry for only dedicating two sentences of the post ><>(By the way he topped the class [and who knows, maybe level? :D] in LANG ARTS and me as his tablemate is proud of him haha)
Just that I envy Shawn for being so optimistic all the time.
Wishing I could just look on the bright side of everything.
But reality check.
Some stuffs don't have a bright side to them.
Not all tales are FAIRYtales. Not all stories have happy endings.
Just like my life.

我对不起他。我对不起我自己。

~~Maybe things would have been much better if we just took the initiative.~~
No point saying all these already since it's over.
But sometimes some things just remind me of those memories we shared.
And some part in my heart just starts hurting badly.

2009-03-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

够了。
我真的真的受够了。
I have had enough of your AP-ness. And your crap.
你真的好过分好过分。
This time, you've gone overboard.
真的想不到你是这种人。
I can't believe I have to say this - I was blind.

I have nothing else to say.

2009-02-27T22:50:00.002+08:00

Thank you.
Thank you for opening my heart.
Thank you for walking in.
Thank you for teaching me how to love.
Thank you for letting me love you.
Thank you for loving me (once).
Thank you for your existance in my heart.

Now,
Thank you for hurting me.
Thank you for teaching me a valuable lesson on love.
Thank you for slamming the door to my heart.
Thank you for making it such that I won't dare to let anyone come in again.
Thank you for letting me go.
I will thank you one last time,
'Coz you have convinced me that you are just a hallucination, a part of a dream that will never come true.

Thank you.

I will be strong. I will not cry. I won't.

2009-02-26T21:11:00.002+08:00

Short post.
I just want to say this.
~~I don't feel like I belong to 3A.~~
I don't know why but I've got this sinking feeling.
Just hope I am not thinking too much. Sighs.
I cannot think this way anymore; it's unhealthy.
Let's just hope I can help bond 3A like how 2A is.
I know I shouldn't make comparisons.
I feel so guilty.
I don't know what I am doing lol.

Fate is being very playful.
Set me up so many times today.
Stop it. I don't want to play games. Please.

2009-02-25T21:42:00.003+08:00

Physics test kinda screwed.
No throwing of tomatoes please!
I can't believe that person got higher than me.
Ahh that pekcek-ness.
How can it be lahh?!?!?
No offence though.
Well done a*****e.

Finally tests are over.
Gives me more time to really think about life.
Now my life = no life.
Manipulated by school.
What's the point of living then?
So I must start thinking of how to control my own life.
BECAUSE I WANT MY OWN LIFE BACK.

Guides celebrating our PNA gold on friday!!
PIZZA!

Today got MOE interview.
Damn scary.
But shouldn't say it here haha.

This morning was the first time I cried for 3A.
Sighs.

2009-02-21T22:04:00.014+08:00

TODAY'S GUIDES THINKING DAY! :D
Wake up so freaking early to get ready.
Took a lot of photos with guides ahahaha. Actually not exactly..But still quite nice hehe.

Lols. Here's the indoor stadium before guides start coming in. 0.0 Early in the morning.

Same thing. Ps ahh photo is blur.

This was after our performance. (: See the red ribbon? Haha. Our performance was on stopping the spread of AIDS 0.0 I am one of the dancers with AIDS ahahahaha. LOLS.

Guides singing HEAL THE WORLD. I LOVE THIS SONG HEHE. COZ IT REMINDS ME OF MALANG FRIENDS ZOMG. They sang this song during the farewell ceremony sighs. ): Miss them ahs.

RV GUIDES!! :D WITH SEC 1S AHAHAHA.

Seee? So many sisters. Yays. We rule!

End of thinking day. So cute ahhs the brownies. Ohyea. WEST GROVE NVR EVEN RECEIVE PNA?! Why liddat?!

Me and my darling huiying hehe. act cute!

Sorry lah. People like to act cute mahhs. I like this shirt! ((:

MRT to Boon Lay. Zilian lahhs. Me and yantong! :D

Me and huiying photo number 2. (: SISTERS <3 One white one black horh aahaha.

Reflection on MRT window. PHOTO NUMBER THREE!! <3>

That's all haha. Happy guides thinking day everyone! Well done to all performers! You all did really really great ahahaha. Except me of course. 0.0

2009-02-20T20:49:00.002+08:00

I promise to do my best,
To do my duty to God,
To serve my country,
and to help other people,
and to keep the Guide law.

I think that is the only promise I can ever made.
Sighs.

Oh yea. I can't make emo posts here anymore.
Coz apparently huiying reminded me I mentioned before about not emo-ing here.
Sorry lah, people STML 0.0
And I rather not rake up the past.
(That was so not a emo statement)

From here onwards: It will be any other feeling except emo-ness.

First, I WILL NEVER WANT TO JOIN PESA AGAIN.
NEVER EVER EVER.
Being humiliated once, I won't be so stupid again.
And anyway, you should give other people chances right?
Just because I participated in this before DOESN'T MEAN I AM GOOD.
So let others have the chance. There's so many people in the class who speak better than me.
I don't want to let down my class anymore.

Today's guides thinking day celebration in school!
Feel so honoured and proud to be a guide!
I love RVGG we rock (:
Although today our "bang" very unsynchronised (spelling??) compared to the scouts 0.0 [Their bang was like WOAH. NICE]... But I am sure we can do better right??
((:
I still love RVGG no matter what.
Raising flag today is sucky zzz.
Coz never raise properly WTH.
During our day somemore. 0.0
Sorry ahhs.

Guides today was...interesting.
We kept practising and practising in the hall...

Well maybe shouldn't elaborate. Cannot go emo remember? (:

Then we have patrol corner!
LITING IS IN GUIDES ZOMG. MY PATROL SOMEMORE.
She's my brother's classmate!!! 0.0
Lols.
Sorry.
Over-reacting.
Better than emo-ing RIGHT?
Patrol corner is very fun ((((:
Coz I was zihigh-ing over there ahahahaha.
BUT SEC 1S!!
CANNOT BE SO QUIET!!
MUST TRY TO TALK!
Don't worry, last time when I had my very first patrol corner I was also like that.
But now you see I am a zi-high girl now.
So muahahaha. You two will one day.

Hmms. Need to chiong PI le lah.
Oh yea btw, GIRL GUIDES GOT PNA GOLD AGAIN.
All thanks to everyone who put in their hard effort.
WE ARE THE BEST!!
AND JIAYOU FOR THE PERFORMANCE TOMORROW GUIDES!
In front of Mrs S.R. Nathan ehhs. And Mrs Joy Balakrishnan.
Sorry if I spelt her name wrongly. Really really no offence.

HAPPY GUIDES THINKING DAY TO ALL MY SISTER GUIDES IN THE WORLD!!

2009-02-19T22:09:00.003+08:00

Getting really really stressed out.
I find that I can't keep promises.
Even promises I made to myself.
That promise...is killing me.
Why should I run away from reality?
Coz I'm afraid I can't handle the harsh truth.

Vulnerable. Fragile. Me. Broken.

Well, if you are a member of 1-2-3action visiting my blog and you realise priscilla's posts are always emo, don't be surprised.
Coz she's always been like that since Sec 1.
Go ask shieuhuei, tiantian, meiwen or even kl lols.

I miss malang pupils.
I am so sorry I broke the promise on making malang video.
I hate myself.
I miss all of you.
I won't be able to see some of you anymore coz you all would have graduated.
I feel like crying.

I just want to say, I miss you.
Is loving someone a sin?
Then why must it hurt so much?
Unless..
it's not even considered love?

I promise myself I will stop thinking about it.
I broke another promise.

I am an idiot. A retard. A moron.

If my friends won't around to keep me sane, I would have start cutting myself and going crazy.
Of course not just because of the above matters lah CHOICHOI!
Studies too.

SIGHS.

2009-02-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!
3A has its blog!

I think I'm falling in love with 3A already ahahaha.
But it will never ever replace 2A' 08. Duh.
Who says you can't love more than one thing at once?
I love my papa, and my momma.
Isn't that two?
LOLS i think I'm going wayy too crazy.
Valentine's Day woke me up.
Yeayea weirdweird.
But haha. I really woke up le. I am back into reality. It's funny how the feeling just vanishes suddenly right?
Yet I don't think it vanished.
Some part of me is still holding it close.
That's the hopeful/optimistic/thinks-everything-has-a-happy-ending kind of me.
I am just way too vulnerable.

Maybe things will turn out better/ the way I planned if I don't see you in school at all.

Speaking of which, I haven't seen you for quite a while.

Is that good or bad?

I swear to treat you as a normal friend from today onwards. (:

Let's just pretend those days never existed.

Maybe it will be better this way.

Sighs.

No! No emo-ing ahhs.

I won't. 0.0

2009-02-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!
Hope you get to be with your sweetheart on this day (:
Treasure your time together and be loving forever! <3

Tell me my verbal acting skills rock man ):
Half an hour more till I have to fulfill my own promise.
The promise of letting everything go.

The pain. The tears.
The memories just keep coming back no matter how much I push them away.
Loving is a torture. I don't ever want to love again.
I won't dare to anymore.

Today's the last day I will cry for you.
I promise that I won't cry for you anymore.
Coz' there's no point.

The fairytale has only half an hour more to go.
Before Sunday arrives, I just want to say:
I have never regretted loving you.
All I regret is that I have to let you go.

Half an hour more.. ):

2009-02-01T16:01:00.002+08:00

my paternal side family. :D

Lols. This was taken on the first day of CNY. Out of a sudden my second uncle wanted to take a family portrait. So take loh Haha.

First row from left: Daddy, My brother Darren, My second uncle, Second Auntie-in-law, Big Aunt, Big Uncle-in-law.

Second row from left: Mummy, Cousin Zaron, Cousin Zavier, Cousin Daniel, Cousin Zann, Second Aunt, Cousin Xinyi.

Third row from left: Second Uncle-in-law, PRISCILLA THAT'S ME!!, My brother Darrell, Cousin Desmond.

WE ARE ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY!! :D

I LOVE MY FAMILY.

I cut my hair again. Shorter. But it doesn't really make any difference.

And I finally pierced my ears. Another memorable day ahh: Feb 1st.

Star-shaped earrings haha. But it's quite big. And I can't take them out until next week. So pray hard I don't get caught. 0.0 SC violate rules ahh. ZOMG I AM SO TERRIFIED.

These days got freaking severe mood swings coz' of somebody's words. I don't want to play games with you anymore coz' I still love you alot. ): Don't you dare ever let me go. Please. Don't let me go. )): Don't leave me.

2009-01-25T23:30:00.003+08:00

Told you this blog will be dead for a long while.
Thanks for those who still kept my tagboard alive. In one way or another.
Shall spend some time updating this.
Most recent happenings: MALANG IMMERSION IN RV.
THE BEST IMMERSION I HAVE EVER JOINED COZ I JUST SIMPLY LOVE THE STUDENTS.
They are the best man. And we had so much fun together (((:
WE WENT SHOPPING TOGETHER AND THAT WAS THE BEST-EST EVER.
I LOVE MALANG!!!
Hana, Dila, Erlangga, Ista, Ika, Ocha, Nadia, Nayu, Rafif, Freddy, Falonia, Farah, Tata, Sekar....sorry I can't remember some names or I spelt some wrongly ><
But I love all of you!!
I promise I will come to Malang whether or not my parents allow :P
Coz I just want to see you guys again :)
I cried so much when you guys left. ): I really wished you all don't have to leave )):
Must remember me okay???
CEPAT AYO!! I don't mind if you don't remember my name but must remember my favourite phrase.
"EVERYBODY QUICK QUICK! LET'S GO LET'S GO!! HURRY HURRY!! CEPAT CEPAT!! AYO....!!"
Everybody do you all miss me now?? Haha I very zilian I know. But I really miss all of you.
I am going to make a video using the photos I took during Malang immersion. Must look out for it okay? ((: I PROMISE THIS TIME I WILL DO IT. :D

Meanwhile,
Happy New Year everybody!! 15 minutes more...
I don't have to repeat my resolutions again right?
Just hope all my loved ones will enjoy their year ahead. Especially you ):
Love you loads ><

2009-01-10T23:38:00.002+08:00

I proclaim this blog to be dead 0.0
Won't be posting for awhile. Or a long while.
Must revise subjects for tests.
Call me kiasu but I think I am so going to flunk PHYSICS.
Can you guys really understand that lesson? I think I'm the only one who can't. ><
Damn.
Alotalotalot homework.
Will be very very very busy. And it's only the first few weeks of school.
Hosting malang people next week. WOOTS.
3rd time hosting people le. Feel so proud of moi-self.
But will be so dead with studies.
Therefore I can't blog anymore. For the time being.
STUDY STUDY STUDY!!

(That's what you get when you are in a "A" class. THE STRESS.)

2009-01-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

First day of school. Not bad. Haha.
3A is quite nice. Met nice people. Like kaixin (:
And one of the PRCs, zhenyu, has a great singing voice LOLS.
But 3A quite dao lahhs.
Maybe first day mahhs. Next time cannot leave me alone to scream and shout and zi-high ahhs.
Next time when ask you all cheer MUST CHEER LOUDLY!!
See other classes got cheer lahh.
Somemore I stand on stage. -.-
I didn't know embarrassing yourself is as easy as one mass dance.
Lols but I enjoyed it can. Haha. Not being on stage. But the mass danceS.
Altogether we did 12 times. 5 sun dance, 6 All for One, and 1 Let's get it started.
HOLY MOMMA.
Hahas.
So freaking tired lahhs. Sweating terribly sehhs.
Can lose weight muahaha.
And so embarrassing also...
Do in front of whole school AHHS.
Next time ACES day how?!?!?!
Lols.
At least got others with me ((:
I love SPIRITS.
Though my face is thrown far far away thanks to today 0.0

UG PARADE US PARADE UG PARADE.
WE ROCK WE ROCK WE ROCK.
GUIDES ROCK GUIDES ROCK GUIDES ROCK.
Of course lahhs. WE ARE BEHIND SJAB EHHS!!!
And alot of people say we march very well.
Including the fierce NCC teacher MR TAN. ( He's my physics teacher 0.0 Looking forward to his lessons man)
AND WE ONLY HAD TWO REHEARSALS!!!
RIVER VALLEY GIRL GUIDES ROCK.
OH YEA ((:
I LOVE RVGG!!!!

Conclusion: Priscilla without a face. BUT SHE LOVES RVGG AND SPIRITS ALL THE SAME!

2008-12-31T22:58:00.002+08:00

Last day of 2008.
Lols. Sentimental post here. AKA emo post.
Doesn't really make a difference since every post of mine is emo.
Kay lah not really. Haha.

Hmms. 2008.
Happiness, sadness, anxiety, depression, enthusiasm, hatred and love.
Hmms. More sad things than happy things ahhs.
2 years. In a flash, 2 years in RV passed. It's really fast. Roller coaster right.
It really seems like yesterday when I just received my results. REALLY.
Not exaggerating haha.
A lot of memorable things happened. Duh.
Shan't talk about 2A coz I guess everyone should know liao wad. 2A is the best and I love 2A no matter what.
Some memorable things that happened are like Odyssey of the Mind, Storytelling competition, SC elections.
I guess the most memorable thing is OM haha.
I love those times. Maybe it's because we are representing the school.
A lot of failures but in the end we still got second haha.
Remember during the presentation we were like "Ahya won't win de" lols.
And we GOT SECOND!
Storytelling competition.
Lols I just realised it's the same scenerio XOXO.
Quite last minute preparation...
And indeed the other schools are better.
But I guess we won because our moral of the story is so politcally correct.
Hoho.
SECOND!! After commonwealth. Lols.
SC elections. Hmms. There are times where I hesitate on being an SC...But I still become one didn't I?
So I still must put in effort.
So people do your Mass dance coz I am going to be on stage!!
Hahas.

2008 is really memorable.
There are other memorable stuff, but not convenient to say >< Haha.
Of course there are things I regret. But what's the point of regretting?
(: Try to forget them. It's useless to keep remembering unhappy stuff hahas.

I really wish for a great year ahead in 2009.
No matter who I meet, what happened, I hope it will be a good thing.
Of course there will be obstacles, but I hope to overcome them.
My new year's resolution: To work hard to own PRCs and to stop being a playgirl.
XOXO
I promise to stick to my new year's resolution. I must work really really hard and maintain my results (:
And to focus on loving one person only ><
Haha.

Just 20+ minutes to midnight. To a whole new year.
Overwhelming sensation?
Haha you bet. 2009 HERE I COME.

2008-12-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

I can't believe this is the first time I am saying this.
But I hate RV.
Just because of the stupid 2009 class list.
I know I am majorly over-reacting.
And this RV-lover actually says she hates RV because of this. Which means it's something TERRIBLE.
No. 3A's fine. The people in the class are fine. I know quite a number. Which is kinda good. Like being in the same class as sh, tt, mw and kl is good enough for me. And being in the same class as three other West-grovians - shaotan, cheryl and minghong is fine. Being in a class with 3 other SCs - likai, minghong, shaotan and the PSB president, shirley (though i dun talk to her), is absolutely fine.
But with half the clique in 3E, that's where everything's gone horribly wrong.
><>BLOODY HELL SHOULD.
Yea I don't give a damn who knows about it liao.
But just...ARGHS.
I want to be in 3E. Simple.
I DON'T LIKE THE WAY THEY ASSIGNED OUR CLASSES!!!

2008-12-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

Happy boxing day!
For yesterday, MERRY CHRISTMAS AHHAHAHA!!
Today is a wonderful wonderful wonderful day.
WITH 6E!!!!
Pity huiying cannot go ><

6E had an outing at jurongpoint today.
People comprising of amanda, keyu, jiahwee, michelle, tianli, huimin, ziqian, sacharissa, sach's brother, hongwoon, yewhui, shenyang ( AKA gordon ), shenyang's brother ALEX, minghong, minghong's brother, daniel.
AND ME!!
Haha.
Gathered at bl mrt station at around 12.40. Then walked to jp to eat. At first jiahwee and keyu want to eat subway de, but the place was full so in the end it was macdonalds. Did a lot of catching up. And me, keyu and huimin were busy sending songs hoho. KEYU YOU ROCK MAN! The song guru 0.0 Yes and support JJ Lin's and Jay Chou's new albums!!!!!
Movie starts at 2.20, and around 1.40 liddat we still haven't buy the tickets -.-
By the time we reached the cinema, WTH!!
SO MANY PEOPLE!!!!!
Hoho. Scared not enough time to buy tickets, but in the end still queued. And we got the tickets!! But it was the 3rd and 4th row seats.
!!!
(Realised it wasn't that bad after all.)
Anyway the money part was a problem. Keyu was so confused haha. She even said she don't want to see money again. You sure?? Lols.
There were a lot of ppl at the stall too.
By the time we bought our popcorns it was time to go in. Phew. We were just in time yays (:
Watched the movie.....................Oops forgot to tell you. We were watching BEDTIME STORIES.
Hmms. Movie not up to expectations. Well, kinda expected it to be a comedy but it was more like a straight "the-moral-of-the-story-is". And there weren't enough funny parts. A 6/10 if you ask me.

Thought we were going somewhere after the movie. In the end it was going home time.
Sad face.
But I suggested to go to the arcade. YES HELL I DID.
And me, huimin, sach and her brother, plus the guys went ((:
Same old same old lahhs. Daytona, basketball.
See the guys play daytona damn funny.
Alex is super pro omg.
The guys are quite good at this sehhs. Duh.
I don't even know how to shift gear. Awww.
!!!
Anyway there were quite a number of times they played with this guy. A total stranger. But boy he was good. Too bad our guys still own him. :P
Only played once. Yup moi. Accidentally go choose AUTOMATIC. 0.0
And I didn't know need to use the brake de lehhs.
Until cyh told me -.- Then he helped me press the brake.
After about 4-5 laps later then realised the brake was not even working O.O
Hohoho. Then he even helped me press acceleration. I just have to steer. -.-
Lols.
Got people help me I still lost.
Sorry lah people is noob de okay. :P
Basketball!!
Hands super aching. Again. I AM NOOB IN ARCADE KAYS.
Stupid cyh mouth very big.
Open mouth close mouth keep talking about him. -.-
Ehhs you are the one obsessed can?
:PPP
Around 5 plus the guys went to eat. Then me and huimin played TYCO.
Dunno how to spell lahhs. It's about beating drums de. Those kind of chinese drums.
Not bad for my first time hoho.
And that's the end of our 6E reunion.
I'm glad I still love 6E after 2 years!!
(((: Of course. These memories can never be replaced by any other class. Even 2A.
Coz 2A's unique and have another set of memories on its own.
Who says you cannot love more than one thing?
I LOVE 2A AND 6E.
(:

Tomorrow another class outing!!
Can't wait to see everyone dress formally. LOLS.
Sure damn funny de.
Got people wear dress rightright??
Please don't make me the only girl in a dress there. :o

2008-12-20T17:17:00.001+08:00

I've decided not to post the pictures le.
One, no mood.
Two, shall not show people unglam pictures of moi :P
Yanting, you want you can get them from me (:

The most interesting event that happened this week: SEC 1 REGISTRATION

Have I said how much I adore west grove????
I've got so many juniors coming from wg, and omg most of them are my brother's classmates AHHH!!
Lols. I don't mind. At least they know me, though I don't know them.
Janice told me there are 17. My brother checked their class blog and said there's 16. Mom told me her friends said 20?!
Maybe the 20 includes pupils from other classes. But they will know me since they know my brother. Muahaha.
Can't wait to see them woots!
But don't don't don't ever call me Darrell's sister. Please.

Hoho. Darrell is in ACS!! ACS ACS ACS ACS!!
Though the only time I went in is during Odyssey of the Mind AND IT WAS ONE OF MY BEST MOMENTS EVER, THAT COMPETITION.
Sighs.
And he look so cute with the uniform. I know he ain't supposed to look cute. But still.
He needs to wear a tie. Hoho.
And his books are like, almost same as RV.
Jiayou in there brother!!
If you see Benedict, weijie or arul, help me say hi muahaha. (: Just don't let them bully you. :p

Uniform sales was okay... So many people. -.-
First day I woke up at 6.30.
And I was supposed to meet shaotan at 6.30.
Then I chiong out of the house within 10 mins. Without eating breakfast. Sighs.
At first already mentally prepared I can only stay hungry for the rest of the day till 3. Coz no breaks (as quoted by cuiling)
Then one of my juniors, Angeline, came by, with her mom. And her mom knows me.
So I chatted with them. And somehow let slip that I didn't had breakfast and had no intention to.
15 mins later, her mom showed up with a tuna sandwich and milk.
AHHAHAHA THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU!!
Omg she is so nice (((:

Then was so busy...until like 12, The crowd dispersed.
Then we were stocktaking the stuff coz we got nothing to do.
Blahblahblah. Nothing much to elaborate.
Except today. Got this super AP girl who came in to buy uniform. Sighs. I can't believe she's coming into RV.

That's all haha.

Merry christmas HOHOHO.
(According to shuying christmas is a christian mas selamat hoho)

2008-12-14T20:50:00.003+08:00

I hate my new haircut. AHHH.
-Prays my hair will grow faster-
Ehhs. If I don't have time to post my trip pictures it's okay right?
Lols.
Coz maybe seriously no time to post.
Like let's see...

Mon - guides cip
Tues - Guides cip
Wed - guides cip
Thurs - uniform sales
Fri - uniform sales
Sat - uniform sales

Maybe I can post on sunday? Or the next week. But judging from my schedule, I don't even think next week's possible. Sighs. I may not even be able to finish my cip hours?!
And the ug parade thingus.
ARGHHS.
It clashes with my uniform sales on the 20th...
Then since I am the understudy it's impossible for me to go for the rehearsal. I have to help out in the uniform sales.
And on the 26th there's another rehearsal...not confirmed though.
But SC general meeting is on that day too.
And I can't pray there's no rehearsal 'coz I need the rehearsal or not I will definitely not meet the standard the SJABs want.
AHHH.
And I can't exactly pray there's a rehearsal 'coz if not I have to decide going for SC or guides.
Sighs. Not the first time I'm stuck between these two.
But lemme tell you, if there's a rehearsal on the 26th, I AM GOING.
I desperately need to practice or I will suck.
I am really sorry I won't be able to attend the GM if that's the case. )):
Coz I know it's really important...but I have to go for Guides. Since I've already missed guides for the uniform sales.
Sighs. Life's unfair.
But wait, there's no such word.
-Depressed-

Stupid cyh. This msg's for you since you like highlighting my words so much :P

2008-12-13T16:07:00.003+08:00

I AM BACK.
Well technically I was back on thurs.
But I'm considered back to the blogging world.
Wootswoots.
So many things to talk about my trip.
((:
I am going to make a story about it.
Haha. Cool right? But there's no time ><
Errs. I will try to post my pictures asap. Over 100 sia. Coz the place is just so damn nice.
I LOVE SUNWAY LAGOON WOOTS!!
The hotel rocks. The shopping centre rocks. The bowling centre rocks. The amusement park rocks.
So reluctant to come back to singapore lahhs. Haha jkjk. Singapore is still the best.
((:
And I feel better after the trip. Much much better.
Coz I've made a decision.
I choose to remain depressed for the rest of my life. It's definitely better than having this heavy stone yea?
And I'm actually happy about being depressed. -.-
Maybe one day someone will lift me out of my depression.
God knows when.
Anyway pris is back to having split personality again.
Of course she can't let her friends see her in pain.
(:

Xmas is coming!!! Ohh I can't wait for shopping.
The shopping gene exists in all girls, let me tell you.
:P
No matter what I do I still love you.

2008-12-08T12:50:00.002+08:00

Woots. Going malaysia tomorrow.
Sunway lagoon haha.
And we're taking a plane for a change.
Coz I've never sat on a plane before.
Cool right?
Actually no.
Been feeling very moody for the past few days...
After what happened on Friday.
It was my worst day ever I guess.
As in after returning home from the chalet.
Now being at a crossroad once again.
If you were me, would you prefer to be guilty for the rest of your life? Or will you rather be depressed for the rest of your life?
It's hard to choose. So if anyone sees this post, just tag your choice kays?
Seriously need some advice.

I just wished I stop thinking about it being a mistake.
I just wished it will be my fairytale instead.

But wait. Fairytales don't exist.

Maybe things will be better after my trip. Let's hope it will lift my spirits up.

It's been a month. (: Ily.

2008-12-06T21:23:00.002+08:00

I'm finally back.
Not my usual self though.
Think the lack of sleep is still getting to me.
Still feeling groggy.
Shouldn't have persisted on not sleeping.
Argh.
LOVE CLASS CHALET NO MATTER WHAT.
(((:
Rocks lahhs. Not the activites, but at least I get to be with 2A once again.
So many wonderful memories.
I wonder how I can stand NOT being with 2A from now on.
I will miss all of you alotalotalot.
Even though some of us may be in the same class, it won't be the same anymore. It won't be 2A anymore.
Sighs.
Don't know what to post for class chalet...
Some stuff cropped up unexpectedly...But still love it.
The only clear memory in my head was what happened on the last day. ><
About my wallet. And some more stuff too((:
Thanks to zimin for helping me find my wallet! And thanks to everyone else who helped!!
LOVE YOU PEOPLE.

SX recommended me this book called "All the way".
Can't remember the author.
But there's a movie on it. And it's titled is "Sex drive".
Totally different titles. But I liked the second one better. As in the way they use that phrase.
Coz it's about a guy who drove all the way to another place just to meet a girl he met online.
Whereas the first title is kinda...plain. Though it does tell us what happened, but it pales to the second.
Whatever. Anyway I watched the trailer.
And I think the book is gonna to be better.
Lols.
Go see bahhs. It's a wonderful book. Don't know if it's a great movie though ><

2008-11-29T20:12:00.002+08:00

So bored.
Sososo bored.
I hate holidays. The only thing I am looking forward to is class chalet.
Trying to sneak my mahjong set out.
NOBODY WHO SEES THIS IS SUPPOSED TO TELL MY FAMILY ABOUT THIS.
(Stares at xinyi and janice.)
Haha. Major over-reaction.
Don't mind me.
Just self-entertaining coz my ahgong refuses to entertain me. :P
He's busily scolding someone. And I refuse to see why that poor person is scolded. :P
We went for guides competition finals today.
The guiders are so....scheming.
Only announced who are the finals today so there will be audience. Ha.
We didn't go in. The finals.
Sad, but expected.
The questions are so freaking easy! Compared to the prelim rounds.
5th is cedar girls', 4th crescent girls', 3rd raffles girls', 2nd Girl Scouts of Philippines, 1st Henderson Sec.
Way to go Henderson! You did Singapore Girl Guides proud (:
It was such a tough battle lahhs. Between Henderson and Philippines.
But we won! Yay!
Reception was nice.
Haha. That's the only thing I looked forward to.
And now I am going to watch my COFFEE PRINCE.
The girl's so damn retarded.
But who am I to say her?
><

2008-11-26T22:38:00.001+08:00

如果有一天我不再烦你，你会想我吗---

某一天，你拨我的电话号码，语音告诉你我已经停机。答应我不可以难过，不可以失落；不可以想

我，更加不要记得有这样一个我。某一天，你的手机不再频繁的响起，请不要等待，不要期盼，更加

不要想找到我，只有看到这样的一个你，我才可以放心的离开。

某一天，你的耳边不再有人说烦人，讨厌。不再有人固执的说自己永远是正确的，不再有人粗鲁的

对你发脾气。不再有人和你讨价还价的想多讲几分钟电话，不再有人在挂电话之前吵着要你亲亲和

抱抱。这样的一个我消失了，你会难过吗？

某一天，你的短信收件箱里，不再有人可怜兮兮的说距离你回家还有几分几秒，不再有人恶狠狠的

说再不和我说话我就揍你拉，不再有人撒娇的说你讨厌说你坏，不再有人在做错事情之后悔恨不已

的责备自己不对。不再有人胡言乱语，不再有人长嘘短叹，不再有人时而温顺的对你言听计从，又

突然大呼小喝的对你乱发脾气。你失去了这样的一个我，会失落吗？到了那样的一天，我还是希望

你有一点点的难过，一点点的失落，一点点的想我，只要有一点点关于我的记忆就好，真的只要一

点点就好。

某一天，你打开电脑，我的头像变成了永远的灰色，不要说我不守承诺，是我感觉到累了，倦了，也

真的受伤了。

某一天，你的生活中没有了我，请记住我对你的好，我的任性，固执；我的宽容，关怀。我毫不边际

的孩子话，我的疯话，傻话，伤心时候流着泪，无奈时候叹着气说过的话。可是你要记得，我们虽然

在地球的不同角落，但是我们头上顶着同一片蓝天，脚下踏着同一片绿草地，呼吸着一样的空气，

或许这里能找到你的味道。

某一天，你的记忆中没有了我，不要忘记我们在一起的每一分每一秒，不要忘记我喜欢什么，讨厌

什么，觉得什么是幸福，什么是痛苦。而我无论如何都不会忘记任何一个关于你记忆的片断，你习

惯什么，反感什么。觉得什么是快乐，什么是悲伤。感情世界里，没有公平两个字，我不会计较这

些，我们在一起的那两个月,会是我这辈子里最美丽的回忆。我还要你记得答应过我什么，许诺过我

什么，可是我不好，不乖，不守承诺，我没有等到你彻底忘记了，重新幸福起来的时候就离开了；没

有陪你走到痛苦结束的时候，没有等你真正快乐起来的时候，就逃开了。

某一天，你的生命中不再有我，一定不可以记得我的存在，我的痕迹，因为我害怕你会失落，会难

过，会想我，这一切不是因为你喜欢我，爱我，而是习惯了我每天的电话，每天的留言，我的胡搅蛮

缠，我对你的依赖。当一个人的生命中习惯了另一个人存在的时候，即使没有喜欢和爱，他依旧会

感到失落，会有点难过，会想他，虽然我是一个喜欢嫉妒，脾气很大，霸道，更加不能容忍我喜欢的

人爱着别人的人。但是我依然希望你过的比我好，希望看到你幸福的过着每一天。

某一天你的前世和今生都不再有我，当原本就不太坚强的我面对这一刻的时候，我不清楚我会怎么

样？而你依旧是你，你会看到我躲在角落里的苦恼懊悔吗？会感觉到我无时无刻不陪伴在你的身

边吗？尽管你叹气的时候我不会再去安慰你，难过的时候不会再陪你一起难过，心碎的时候不会再

去陪你一起心碎，曾经我做的这一切，你都未曾察觉到，未曾看到，你的记忆，你的生命，你的世界

不再有我的时候，我更加清楚的这样的时候，你不会有一点点的难过，一点点的失落，一点点的想

我，一点点的关于我的任何记忆。

当这一天到来的时候，是我真的绝望，真的心碎，真的疲倦了。因为有太多太多的时候，我都是装，

虽然我总是装作无所谓，可是我真的不在乎吗？而你呢？会在乎我的一切吗？可是我会很自责，会

恨我自己，因为我做了一个不守承诺的人。我答应过你任何时候都不会离开你。你对我说过，你不

知道如果有一天我离开你了，你会怎么样？我懂，其实都是我不好，我不该让你生活中，生命里，有

我的存在，我该做一个默默守候你的爱人，默默承担一切，偷偷等你，想你的人。可是我把一切一切

都表现了出来，你知道了，清楚了，了解了，最终感动了，可是我却离开了。

今天陌生的，是昨天熟悉的。

Saw this on a website.
I feel like crying.

2008-11-25T20:25:00.002+08:00

I'm so going against my principles by posting. But can't resist the urge to. (:
Today we have our guides cookies sales!
At a very ulu ulu place called "Dawsons' place".
It's located near queenstown. Somewhere.
We dunno where. ("We" referring to me and jasmine.)
Apparently we heard people saying "from anchorpoint you can just head down the pavement and walk all the way straight."
And so. Our adventure begins...
We met at queenstown mrt station. Waited for bus 51 for about 10 minutes.
Then we alighted near anchorpoint. And we walked.
And we walked.
And walked.
And walked.
And walked.
And walked.
And walked.
And walked.
And walked.
And walked.
And walked.
And walked.
-Pants-
And walked.
And walked.

And then we realised we were lost?
Not exactly lost lahhs. But wondering where the hell that place was.
Then we walked into 7-eleven. And we asked the cashier where that place was.
So we continued to walk and walk and walk and walk.
Then we walk all the way until we see a junction.
AND AN MRT TRACK.

Pris: "Wth. There's a MRT track?! If we see queenstown mrt station, we can go kill ourselves."
Jas: -Laughs-

And we walk and walk and walk.
And I turned to my left and I see something blue around the MRT track.

Pris: "We can go kill ourselves le."

Don't worry. I am still alive. Duh.
But it's super retarded lah.
55 minutes of walking?!
And it turns out Dawsons' place is just near the MRT station.
Sighs.
1 BIG ROUND.
Ha. NVM.

The sales was...okay?
I didn't manage to sell anything. NOOB SHYT.
But the rest, we managed to sell 25.
25 lehhs. Pro right.
Except for me.
Meng Ping is so cute.
Haha. She's a true guide. "Be prepared." And she really came with everything. Takes my hat off.
And I made a new friend!
His name is Rong Guan Haha.
He says people call him LONGAN.
-.- Where got people first met tell them the nickname de? Ha.
He's around P2/3?
My brother's age then. But he's super big. And cute. Chubby. Haha.
I made a bet with him you know?
Chopsticks game. (:
If I win, he must get someone to buy our cookies.
If he wins, he can eat the sample cookies.
Guess who won?

Him.
I suck. ):
But he didn't eat the sample cookies. His mom's chasing him to go home.
But he don't want.
He was standing there. Don't want to move an inch.
Then I started chasing him away. Later his mom worried mahhs.
I treated him like how I treated my brother. Except better.
"Longan 你快点回家 lah. Later 你妈妈担心。 Go home 可以看电视，可以躺在沙发，可以睡觉，开 air-con 睡觉。Quick go home already. "
"我不要回家。很闷。"
"你不回家 horh, 我带你回家 loh. 你要跟我回家吗？不然快点去。要跟我回家？"

Lols. That's our conversation.
And then he went off.
YAYS! Success. (:
But after that saw him and his parents again. ><
And he DAO-ED me.
He just walked past like that lehhs.
Heart-broken ):
I think he must be angry at me for chasing him away. Ha. So sad.

Then went home. Too tired to post the rest of the happenings.
I got my guides competition tomorrow.
WISH ME LUCK!!

2008-11-18T20:50:00.002+08:00

TRIPLE SCIENCE AND GEOG.
OH YAY OH YAY OH YAY.
(=
I must work extra hard le.
Gambatte pris!!

Today went to school for mass dance.
We need to choreograph mass dance.. School spirits mahhs.
Oh yea we rock (:
Love the trip to school =P

We basically stoned in the dance studio.
In 2 hours we came out with one action.
Pro right?!
But after that we went munweng's condo (in the clubhouse) and we finished the first song!!
Pro right?!
I was so engrossed that I rubbed the back of my hand against a bookshelf during a particular action. And now it's still hurting. Friction burn okay?! Skin tear lehhs. ><
Then went back home felt unwell. Sighs.
Hope I will be fine.
I can't afford to get sick. Not at a time like this.
Sighs.

2008-11-17T20:51:00.002+08:00

Hmms. Do you enjoy this holidays?
Lemme think.
Aside from my busy-schedule-yet-stay-at-home-also-nothing-to-do-plus-go-to-school-also-not-the-same-coz-you-don't-get-to-be-in-2A-classroom-anymore-and-don't-feel-like-doing-homework-but-you-have-to-and-can't-go-out-coz-you-are-just-too-busy?
Yea I'm fine with it.
I HATE HOLIDAYS.
Wanna see my schedule?
(=
HMMS.
Nah. Don't want to scare all of you.
This week I'm almost packed.
Next week guides competition.
ARGH GUIDES COMPETITION!!
First three weeks of december booked. Literally. Full.
Hey. I thought there were only four weeks in december?
Yea you're right.
Technically I only have 1 week of holidays.
Oooh that's so cool.
Expect this blog to be dead, people.
Coz pris' too busy to post. She's got a guides competition coming up and she haven't started preparing.
She's got to hand up this chinese homework by this friday and she still don't know what she's supposed to do.
YAYS.
Pris so loves her busy life.
And aside her busy life, she still got personal stuff to settle.
-.-
Don't really want to talk about it.
ily.

2008-11-16T12:29:00.007+08:00

Told ya I will post the pictures. Haha.
I look quite retarded in some yea. ><
I LOVE YESTERDAY!!
-Credits to xinyi for posting these(:-

Yea retarded-me-plus-pretty-her picture no. 1. I'm so enjoying myself. Haha.

Act cute time!! I look spastic. Okay lahhs. I admit I look cute here. OOPS. Thick-skinned pris. =P

See the height difference?! But she's only 3 years older than me. So I am not short loh. ((: This was taken in the toilet. =X

Neoprint number 1!! Her head looks so big haha. Pretty!

Okay. Those japanese words are placed by me (: But I don't know if I remembered it correctly. It means friends right? Sorry I quit japanese a YEAR ago. (:

Angels on a broomstick!! Haha I love this the best =X *coughs coughs*

Act-cute picture 2! We look so innocent. Haha. My face very round seh. Lols.

There. Our pictures. Muacks. Love yesterday!!

2008-11-15T21:26:00.002+08:00

Woots.
Today's fun!
Went out with xinyi to kbox.
At marina.
We went to pizza hut to eat first.
She treated me haha thankyou!! <3
Wear until so mature lahhs. Make me look so kiddish. (no such word horh.)
She is my 大姐 haha.
Then I am 小孩子.
After eating we went kbox.
So damn cool muahaha.
Sing for three hours straight.
Woah.
Songs by Jay, S.H.E, Jolin, Claire, blahblah.
But mostly from jay woots!
Waiting for her to post the pictures so i can kope and put them here haha.
Then we went window-shopping.
And we talk about our love lives.
*ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem*
HAHA.
Then we took neoprints!!! I LOVE NEOPRINTS. XOXO
She looks so chio lahhs.
On the way back I lamed her with jokes.
And she lamed me with some too.
Today's fun!!
Let's go out someday together again.
Love you 大姐！！

2008-11-13T21:24:00.002+08:00

Back.
Finally.
After a long week.
Wait. Sadly the week isn't over.
SC course on monday.
Went to old folks' home to do service learning.
SC camp on tuseday and wednesday.
Games games and games.
Fun but tiring.
Slept for three hours.
Wednesday thursday friday first aid course.

Wondering why I am rushing through this post?

Coz I have the first aid test tomorrow.
And like any other tests, I am scared I will fail.

I didn't know kissing dummies using a piece of cloth is that fun.
JOKING!

1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5 and 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 10 and 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 15 and 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 20 and *puffs* 1 and 2 and *pants* 3 and 4 and 25 and *pants* 1 and *pants* 2 and 3 and 4 and *pants* 30!

30-compression.
Haha.

God please let me pass my test tomorrow!!

Will come back to talk more about my week. But not anytime soon. Expect the blog to be DEAD.
Sighs.

Looking forward to saturday's outing!! But hey xinyi, you haven't tell me where and when to meet?

2008-11-08T16:52:00.003+08:00

Today woke up feeling very happy.
Also not quite sure why. Haha.
Anyway today we're supposed to go to Labrador Park to do beach cleaning.
For guides.
Lols.
In school we saw a lot of different CCAs.
NPCC, scouts, badminton, CO, volleyball, etc.
All came back for CCA.
Ha. Then when everyone was here we went out. We're supposed to walk there.
While walking, the sky was threatening. It was really very dark.
Then it started to rain, and we are trapped under the flyover. LOL.
Me, huiying, zimin and yantong shared one umbrella.
In the end, the initiative had to be called off.
So we went back to school, and I was caught in the rain. ):
Anyway after that, some sec 4s asked me to teach them Sun Dance.
For their QingDao GPP.
Random, but yea I agreed.
Only took 5 mins.

Then the four of us went to vivo. The same four under one umbrella(:
Went to eat, then went up to the pool.
Then my handphone was dropped into the pool.
And therefore voila! There goes my handphone.
Woots. Second time it was dropped into the water le.
Remembered I dropped my handphone into the sea?
UH-HUH.
Going to repair it soon.
But maybe it's beyond repair.
Using an old brand of handphone now. So you guys still can contact me haha.

Feeling super tired. But still got so many stuff to do. Maybe I should go take a nap.
*Yawns*

2008-11-07T18:08:00.003+08:00

Firstly, Happy Birthday to my mommy(:
One year older le. Cannot be so naggy le lah. But haha I know it's for my own good. ILOVEYOU GIRL!
Yeahuh. My mom's like my sister. Sorry that I don't tell you everything. Don't want to bear the consequences of that ><

Secondly, I love 2A.
2 years. Just like that, 2 years passed. I still remembered the very first time we worked together as a class. It was during orientation. Remember we had to come out with a campfire item? I will always remember that because I was the one who suggested "We are all in this together". Hah. Eh, nobody is to come and beat me up after this coz it's seriously an appropriate song for us muahaha. Then at first we were so dead and so soft....With yujun, yeejia and yulu, we slowly become louder and louder....And finally on the night of the campfire, we rocked the place man. Well, maybe not really, but at least we were totally high and enjoying ourselves.

From last year's history competition, to the class chalet, to the chinese new year mv, to the learning symposium game stall....we had been through so many things. Of course, there were unhappy times. But staying strong together, we tide through the storms. We experienced joy, laughter, tears, madness, insanity, depression, emo-ness....Everything. I am really really glad I am in 2A. Really. 32 strangers, suddenly stuck in a same class. It's amazing how much we changed from last year. Look at the mv made by jeremy and you will know. (:

I hope we will still have 2A in our hearts. I hope 2A will never ever disappear off the face of this world. I hope we will still bother to say HI to one another if we meet each other on the way to our science labs or during recess. Coz I seriously can't imagine us separated. Really. Even though it's just two years, so many things happened, and each matter just brought us closer. (Sometimes too close till some people *ahem* *ahem*. Haha.) When we meet each other on the streets, we must not dao each other okay? But I doubt anyone will dao anyone. Coz we are all 2 attractive 2 avoid. Rawk on 2A! I will miss you!

Cried a lot today. Haha. Hugged a lot of people also. Kissed some too. Just a light peck relax. I am not lesbian. Duh. Gave 2A some stuff, and our cliques. (Note the plural.) Hope you all like it. Sorry if it seems so insincere....Too busy preparing for OM presentation le. Only thought of it just yesterday morning. 0.0 Haha.

Saw the yahoo homepage just now. And I was like, WTH?!
Apparently someone had asked my idol to sleep with her?!
What's her problem huh?! Think she very rich then can just use money to buy someone?!
Lucky Jeff chang is not stupid.
Did I say his songs rock? Yea I think I did(:

Hope you all like the present. Especially you(:

谁说蓝色就等于忧伤，你看看天空和海洋。
我爱你。

2008-11-05T20:35:00.002+08:00

Two more days.
Just two more days.
Sighs.
Tomorrow's our learning symposium...
We have to present for OM.
I really hope we can do well...
We did put in quite a lot of effort into this...
We hope we can win those attractive prizes.
Haha.
2 more days.
No more school.
I wonder how I can take it really.
Just like that.
One year has come and go.
I really don't know how I am going to react on friday.
Be mentally prepared - I may cry.
I may prevent myself lah, don't want to spoil the mood marhs.
But anyway...
2A!
Good luck with your future endeavours okay?
Let's continue to keep in touch with one another.
Promise?
Short post.
Emo-ing now.
Want to cry but can't.
Sighs. I dunno why, don't ask me.
Actually reason kinda obvious.

2008-11-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

Boo.
First of all, I would like to say,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER!!!
The second one lah. Not the smart one. Haha.
Must not talk so much already arh...Grown older le.. Must be more mature okay?
And stop fighting with your gor. See the two of you fighting damn sian you know.
Then always have to scold both of you.
Then after that both bu shuang me.
Lols. And must be more hardworking. Don't need to follow your brother study like crazy, but at least better than now okay? Don't be so happy-go-lucky. Or you will suffer next time arh.
WE LOVE YOU DARLING. MUACKS.

Today was boring. Yeahuh.
Went to jp for dinner.
Billy Bombers.
Actually wanted to go out to celebrate his birthday.
I thought we were going to swensens' you know?!
Then after buying his present at Toys R' Us, I was like, "Yay finally Swensens!"
Then my mom was like, "There's no more Swensens' le. There renovating marh? Remember?"
Then my world collapsed.
JKJK.
But I was so sad lahhs. I was so looking forward to going to my favourite restaurant.
And kinda angry at my parents for not telling me.
I was so expecting my baked rice and colt tower, but there ain't any. WAAAA.
In the end we went to billy bombers.
Expensive seh. $146.
Only enjoyed the cookies and cream shake.
Yum-yum.

Been racking my head over subject combination.
It's driving me crazy!!
I seriously don't know what to take...
If I take bicultural, will I be very very busy? I heard we have to stay until 4 or 5 plus ehhs.
Then if I apply for the scholarship, and by chance got it, will I be able to withstand 6 months overseas?
If I don't take bicultural, should I take triple science or double?
Is physics important since I don't want to study engineering?
Should I take history, E. Lit, or Geog?
I have always wanted to take English Lit, the History curriculum for Yr 3 and 4 are very interesting and I have learnt about them before so I am quite familiar with it, and my Geography results are better compared to my E. lit and history.
So which one should I take?
I don't know what I want to study in uni.
I have always wanted to be a Lit. Major like Ms Choong.
But can I do it?
My ambition is to be a lawyer.
So what kind of subjects should I take?
Do I even have what it takes to be a lawyer?
If not, what should I be?
I don't know what's my aim in life.
Damn. Haix.
This is much harder than I thought.
I wonder what subject combi the others are taking.
Especially him ):

2008-10-31T20:34:00.018+08:00

Today was a fun day at West Grove Primary School. Ha.
Joey reached first, then me, then laoda, then shijing.
We were standing there outside the main gate. And Mr Tay was there, with the security guards.
Yes, Mr Tay, the music teacher(:
After that we went in to the General Office, and while waiting for Mr Yeo, we were looking at the teachers' board. Damn. Forgot to take a picture of it. Anyway, the vice-principal has changed too. And my brother didn't bother to tell me about it. Grr. It's somebody called Mr Or. -.- West Grove is doomed. Nvm! Pretend I didn't say anything. Oops. Lols.
Then Mr Yeo arrived and we moved our stuff to 5J classroom. It's on the second level. Lols. Now WG has this partial single session where P3-6 are in the morning. Wow.
We are the earliest school. LOLS.
After setting up, we still had time. So we went down to the canteen. DAMN. FORGOT TO TAKE THE CANTEEN. ARGH. Lols nvm.
But anyway, the cleaners recognised me!! So happy can?!
The stall aunties also. Muahaha.
Some P6 students were already hanging out in the canteen. And I got a feeling they were staring at me. Either remembering this fierce bossy prefect, or that my brother talks about me A LOT.
Anyway, my brother came down later. AND BOY WAS HE SURPRISED. Shocked may be a more appropriate word. He was like, "Are you my sister?" Coz apparently he can't see well. Uhhuh. I didn't told him I was coming. I wanted to give him a surprise. And I succeeded.
Didn't hang out with him for long, since I have been a P6 student before and it's a shame to be with your siblings so I don't want to make him feel embarrassed. Lols. I don't mind anyway.
One thing about having you as a prefect, and your brother as a prefect, and you being in a top school is that you and your brother get kinda famous. Like this invincible duo. Except that maybe they don't know your name, but they sure know your brother's.
So what do they call you?
"Hey, are you Darrell's sister?"
"Yo, you Darrell's sister right?"
"Hello Darrell's sister!"
"You must be Darrell's sister! You two look so alike!"

I kinda flinched at the last one, coz it's either a insult or a compliment. Depending on whether you think my brother's good-looking. Lols Whatever.
Main point is, in this school, my name is "Darrell's sister".
Not that I am not proud of it but...
I do love my actual name(:

Anyway, went back, and the fair started.
Had to pull people into the classroom.
And we keep hearing people say, "Cant lah! Score too high liao!" or "Cant lah! RV so high-class!"
Is that good or bad?
Lols.
But I do see some familiar faces, that is, my brothers' friends.
And some prefects.
And some of my friends' siblings.
And my teachers!
Especially Mrs Karin Gan(:
She's still as skinny as ever, even after giving birth. Propro.
Some other schools came too, to promote.
Met beilin, qiuyan's friend(: I don't know if your name is spelt correctly. But anyway I was like going over to the other side and I said "HI I am Priscilla from RV."
Then she went like, "You are THE Priscilla izzit?!"
I started laughing.
"You are the one who helped me with the survey right?!"
Then I was like, OMG, this cannot be her.
"Are you qiuyan's friend?" I asked.
"Yesyes! You helped me with the survey de!! I'm beiling!! Hello!"
Then we started holding hands and squealing hysterically.
I don't know, but I like this girl. LOLS.
Then after that she was scolded by one of her schoolmates for slacking, and we went back to our classrooms. ):
Then the whole thing was kinda boring, not to mention tiring.
The talk Mr Yeo gave was kinda long and boring. We kept telling him to be more "high" and not talk so much, but then he kept saying "Boss wants de."
Lols. The ppt slides may scare off potential future RV-ians lah.
It's like, seriously chim, and if you are not in RV, you will not make a head or tail out of it.
Anyway, TOOK A LOT OF PICTURES. Scroll down! (Your computer may lag coz there's a lot of pictures!)

Priscilla use handphone in school hah?! This was last year's, during Chinese New Year where we have to make one of the 12 zodiacs. As you can see, our's a rabbit.(: 1A do you remember? Lols. Wait! I wasn't even there in the first place! Why do I have this picture? Hmms. Look down(:

Xinni and Jacky are famous. Lols. Their picture is on one of our posters. Posters to promote RV that is. As you can see, it's CHAMPS. Haha.

There's our basketball court. That is a balcony overlooking the two courts, and a small grandstand at the background(:

This was taken from Block D. That's the fire engine access between Block C and D(:

Our eco-pond!!! I miss this place. This is where I hang out when I am emo. Yes, my emo times go back a long way. Ha. And there's this new corner here in the eco-pond, nearing Block C. They build this netting corner there and guess what they grow? PITCHER PLANTS AND VENUS FLYTRAPS. MYgod. I can't believe I walked past without seeing them!! SO COOL CAN?! Why didn't we have this before? Zzzz.

Our basketball court. What do they treat our basketball courts for? PARKING LOT IZZIT?! What's their problem huh?!

Lols no lah. JKJK.

Block D(: Where 6E is((:

The new fitness corner. They replaced cool stuff like those long beams and the climbing ropes with merry-go-rounds. If the principal's not being retarded, I don't know what she is.

Picture taken from the balcony(: There's the third and fourth level. This place here is the study corner. See the two fans. They are STRONG. Full blast you know? LOLS.(:

The spiral staircase. Overlooking the eco-pond. Can you see the eco-pond in front? Here's one of my prefect duty places when I was in Primary 4 or 5(:

My favourite. The aviary. Again my prefect duty place, when I was in P5. I grew attached to this place while making my rounds during prefect duty during recess. So attached that when I walked past the aviary today, I actually asked the birds if they missed me. HA. Retarded me(:

Our school's magical forest(: Yeahuh. The computers are in those tall things you call TREES. So cute right?(:

Remember this place?! Our reading corner!!!! Last time the wall was painted with pictures of Underwater World. Now they repainted it. It looks much nicer, I admit. And cute! We had story-telling here remember?! Last time, we performed this story about a ghost that was not frightening blahblah. And I will always remember the SCARY-O-METER. HAHA. 6E do you remember? Sighs.

Our small parade square. There's our flagpoles.(:

My emo world. ECO-POND!! The rabbits are gone. Lols. They are supposed to live there, with water surrounding them. They didn't commit suicide don't worry.(: And the fishes. AWW. They used to follow my hand when I stretched it out over the water. Apparently to them, I am holding food. So cute. So graceful(:

Look! So many things changed! Even the water cooler. That's Mr Yeo's bottle. And see? There's no more long metal tube to refill your water bottle. Instead, it comes out from a wall. -.-

The most frequently used staircase. There's our soccer field, and there's our canteen.(: And near thos white short buildings with green roofs, it's Gate 1. Ha(:

Our school hall(: I remembered standing up on stage to lead the school in reciting our pledge for a number of times. Lols. It was so scary at first, but after that, it was cool. Ha. I missed this place(:

Picture taken from the hall. The general office is behind the flagpoles on the first level. The staff room is on top of the General office. Ha(:

The back of the parade square. The library is located at the grey tiles over there. Another of my favourite places. I am a librarian!! (: And on top of the library are the maths and science labs, and the AVA room. Behind the plain white walls at the back of the parade square are just corridors near classrooms. On level 3, there's memory lane, where you are introduced to cultures of different races. We used to hate going there because we won't have enough recess time. Lols.(:

Ah. A most memorable place. The main staircase to the hall. Prefects will be blocking entry during recess. So people will crowd around the bottom of the staircase, then when the bell rings, everyone will rush up. It's so cute lah. And this phenomenon is only found in the lower primary because they want to be the first to gather in the hall. But for the seniors, seriously, we don't care less. Anyway, the left of this staircase is the aviary. And here's NT's prefect duty. Lols. (:

In between this staircase and the aviary is the Magical Forest.(: It's funny how we are never tired of running up and down this flight of staircase. (:

This picture is taken from the eco-pond. Block C's on the right, Block D the left. And that's the spiral staircase.(: WEST GROVE LOVES(:

Another one of my prefect duty places. Well, actually my duty place is the basketball courts. But the guys always play soccer there, and I had phobia of balls. Really. Coz I got hit by them lots of times. Ask yuyan. Lols. Accident-prone. Anyway, those colourful tables are meant to be table-tennis tables. Weird right? This was taken from Classroom 5J(:

5J(: See we arrange the chairs until so nice right? Ha(:

They have new speakers. So cool right? Wait. They are new right? I mean, have you guys seen this before? Lols. No right? Ha. Why didn't they have that in our times?! (:

Minzhang was so happy to see the sink in his old classroom and clementi primary. So I guessed I should too. The sink!! I remembered how that place was always so wet and slippery. Ha(:

The Cupboard. Yes, I mean, the CUPBOARD. Remember how our files and books are always stored there? Lols. And look behing the box of mineral water bottles, THEY HAVE NEW COMPUTERS!!!!! SO COOL!!!!! (:

The staircase near the basketball courts. I remember 6E always pass by this place. (:

The fire engine access. Remember how we used to do 1.6 km here? It was hiong man, at that time. But now? No big deal. LOLS. Grown up already marh. HA.(:

Appropriate use of propaganda. Kidding! This is new too. I guess. I can't really remember. But anyway, they should have one in RV too(:

There's Mr Yeo giving THE TALK. I am amazed how they could keep their eyes open. It's not Mr Yeo's fault. He's great. It's the ppt slides.

Front of WGPS. From gate 2 there. HA. From my position, my block is behind me, not far away. Like, a road junction ahead. Lols.(:

See this staircase? At first it will look kinda unfamiliar. But look at the block behind. Where in the school can you find a staircase like that?(:

The health education corner!!! See? It has changed so much. Now they add butterflies to the ceiling of the staircases. HA(:

I love this day. I miss WG a lot. Really. The reason why I am spamming pictures is because I don't know when is the next time I can step into WG again. I love WGPS. (:

Anyway, how's Sports day? Heard from Darling that Minotaur won. Congratulations mino(: Gryphon got third in cheering. Haix. See, without me they got third. So sad right? HA JOKING PEOPLE!! But expected. I mean, they just like heck-care. Haix. WDV. I give up liao. Though I will still cheer like crazy next time. Ha.

Longing from afar. Loving from afar. I know I shouldn't do this. I just can't help it. Sorry.

2008-10-30T20:49:00.003+08:00

I am so so sorry for not updating for quite awhile.
Been real busy with sc investiture.
It was a success, though with some flaws here and there.
I mean, nothing is perfect. (:
I am really really glad the efforts the organising committee put in had paid off.
Do you all know how much time we spent discussing on the whole investiture?
Lols. After the whole investiture, I felt a great sense of satisfaction, because what I had played a part in organising had turned into a success.
I would like to thank everyone in the organising committee, because we stuck close to one another, help one another in the process. I could see everyone putting in a lot of effort into this, and I am really touched. Special thanks to minzhang, munweng, geraldine, hester, yijia, zimin and rachel for putting in more effort into this than anyone else. Teamwork was really shown here. I am proud of the council. I think we did a good job that day. I LOVE RVSC.
Of course, without our darling RVGG, this could never be a success. Thank you girl guides for helping out in the ushering and everything. Really. The council thanks you from the bottom of our hearts. I heard minzhang is going to buy something to thank all of you. -winks-
Singing the two songs was really touching. One council, one voice. Especially THE FLAME. It has been our council song for awhile, so when we sing it, we really sing it from the bottom of our hearts. I really enjoy the investiture. Thank you everyone. Thank you. Really.

SCHOOL SPIRITS TOTALLY ROCKS.
Muahaha. I know people will say things like "Hello? Weren't you so sad that you were not in welfare anymore? Why the sudden change?"
I should accept the fact right? After all, I am still in the council. I am still serving the same group of people- you guys. So it does not matter which committee I am in.
Our mascot is CASPER THE FRIENDLY GHOST. HOHO.
Coz we are SPIRITS. And since we have to build school spirit, we are friendly! What else can be better than Casper? I love Casper. I remember how I loved to see Casper television shows. With his green uncles and his human friends. LOLS.
I am the treasurer of my committee. (:
School Spirits rock on!

Tomorrow I am not attending school. Which means I am not attending Sports Day.
Coz I am going back to my primary school. ((((:
WEST GROVE PRIMARY SCHOOL!!
I am so happy. Haha.
I hope I can see my teachers again. WOOTS!!

Oh ya I forgot to talk about something that happened in the investiture.
I was looking at the guest list, and Hwa Chong was one of them.
So I was wondering SHW will be there too, since he's an sc.
LOLS.
AND HE DID.
!!!!!!!!!!
I didn't know till yantong told me.
Then I saw him.
He was not wearing those retarded spectacles anymore.
Therefore, I am implying that.
HE LOOKS SO SHUAI IN THAT BLAZER.
Mygod he looks so much better than before can?!
Coz' my uncle's all grown up liao.
LOLS.
He is so shuai so shuai so shuai.
Don't worry I am not in any risk. Since someone has stolen my heart.
LOLS.
Just trying to say I have a wonderful cute uncle.
(:

TERMINUS A QUO. THE BEGINNING.

Am I prepared to give up everything? Or have I already given up, just that I don't know? What am I feeling now?

2008-10-25T21:08:00.002+08:00

Haix. Today's such an unlucky day.
First of all, I had to wear court shoes to school. Blazer attire I mean. Then have to wake up EARLY in the morning. Same time as weekdays. Zzzz. Already sleep for only 6 hours for a few days le lehhs. So tired can?
Then guides only fangqi and shinfung came. So basically I did the manpower allocation list for nothing, and I could have done the sc video by yesterday if not for that list. Zzzz.
Then okay, the next few hours ain't unlucky. Neither unlucky nor lucky.
Anyway, we rehearsed quite a few times. And erms, we had to perform an SC item right??
Don't tell you all now; SURPRISE. (:
Anyway, the actions are done by the School Spirits comm okay?! Very nice de. You all must say it's very nice. (: Me, munweng and huiling taught them the dance steps. (: Student councillors are so cute. Especially some. (:
Then ending item damn nice. I LOVE IT. (((:
By the end of our rehearsal, my legs were aching, and my feet hurt. But I had no shoes to change to. ): Then me, cyn, and zimin proceeded to je to eat. Called hy earlier; glad to know darling is better. MUST TAKE YOUR MEDICINE HORH!! Don't call me naggy; who ask you to be my best friend? ((:
Emo-ed the way to je. Not exactly emo lah. Just really really tired. What's the difference anyway? Well maybe there is. Wadever.
Then alighted at the busstop near je library. And walked towards jec when suddenly,
"Ahh!!!"
I feel something wet dropped onto the side of my head. Landed near my specs.
Guess what is that???
I started screaming and screaming and screaming. How else can you react when some stupid bird pooped on you?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Then cyn and zimin, who were in front, turned around and came to help. Shijing and weely walked past. And helped too. THANKYOU!!
Then I was still screaming. For tissue. And in my head, I was cursing and swearing.
Shijing said I was lucky, coz I only tio a little only. Very little. The bird's poop was on the floor.
But I was still screaming.
Then wanted to rush to the toilet. To wash my hair. My specs was like, MY SAVIOUR.
Or not my face will tio more.
Then cyn went to withdraw money. Zimin accompanied me to the toilet.
While I was washing my hair, Zimin helped me wash specs. THANKYOU ZIMIN I LOVE YOU!!
Then ate at KFC.
Insisted on 2 pieces' chicken meal. Wanted to get my revenge on birds, dead or alive.
Felt much better after eating, but not convinced that revenge was taken. WDV lah. I am not going to walk past that place ANYMORE.
Then had to walk back home. LEGS AND FEET WERE SO SORE. ):
And my court shoes were spoilt. Had to buy new ones.
Zzzz.

I hope my unlucky day didn't started because of the first sms I sent out this morning. Unless god is trying to tell me that I have made the wrong choice. Damn it I shouldn't have sent.

2008-10-23T21:42:00.004+08:00

Minzhang is so funny.

Went to clementi primary school today. Therefore poned all lessons. BLEH.
With minzhang, yuning and mengping.
A bit sians..but the primary school kids so cute!! Ah!!
We went for recess. Then want to go to the toilet.
THen we dunno, so we asked the kids. SO CUTE!!!
Oh ya, before that, minzhang showed us his drawings of two cute fishes on the wall. No lah, is approved drawing. LOLS.
Then the whole thing started. And then mr yeo talked to the p6 kids, then mr chua.
Then we sat down there like dummies.
After that some pupils came and walked around. Basically we sit there stoning lah.
I bet the students don't even know anything on the slides.
WDV.

Went to nus to eat. NUS. SUPER BIG.
We walked and walked and walked. Crazy one lah. Have to walk so long just for macdonalds.
But know more about NUS haha.
The four of us ordered the same stuff- fillet o' fish!!
Then the funny thing happened.
Minzhang sat down beside me, then his tie was caught in the chilli. I don't know how to explain lah, but his tie got chilli. LOLS. Then the smell very strong can?! Then I kept laughing and laughing. See him horh, then I feel like laughing again.
Then he upsized his fries, so he has this wasabi shaker fries bag with the wasabi powder packet.
Then we three asked him to try. Coz the fries is in another packet.
So he picked up the fries one by one to put in the paper bag.
Then we three, including mr yeo, started laughing.
Then I said, "Where got people liddat de? Pour the whole thing lah!"
The rest agreed. Then minzhang took the packet and poured it in when I said,
"But if you don't dare to try, don't put all the fries inside."
And when I finished, the fries were all inside le.
Then I laughed like crazy. Then minzhang give me the "Never tell me earlier?!" look.
Minzhang so funny lah. This is like common sense?! LOLS.
But nvm. HAHA.
Then in the end he don't like it. Then he keep blaming me for it. =P Is you never think loh. HA.
Anyway he forced himself to eat. -.-
Then mengping still had some fries. Without wasabi de.
Then he ate some. And he said, "So delicious!"
I started laughing like crazy again.
I kept laughing and laughing until my mouth hurts.
HAWHAW.
Then we walked A LONG DISTANCE BACK to mr yeo's car and drop by a shop to buy materials for sc stuff.
And then came back RV.
Rushed back to the classroom for History.
I LOVE MY RESULTS. ^^

Maths: 37(ppr 1) + 55 (ppr 2) = 92
Science: 45
Hist: 37
English speech: 23
English "About a boy": 16

!! I LOVE MY RESULTS!! (((:
JIAYOU FOR THE REST TOO!!

Thanks to minzhang for making my day!! ^^
I have not laughed so much in ages.
Ever since...
Nvm.
Thank you mr VICE-PRES!!
POKESPOKES(:

2008-10-22T21:26:00.002+08:00

Sighs.
One word. BUSY.
Coz of SC investiture. Crazy.
So many things to complete lahhs.
Jiayou jiayou organising committee.
Hester, minzhang, geraldine, munweng, yijia, zhixiang, dodo, lokhang, shuying, sheila, yuting, mabelyn, rachel, zimin, siwei and me(:
JIAYOU JIAYOU!!
Siwei is a very nice guy. Haha. A very nice person to work with too.
Minzhang also. He very funny. Pokes!!
Hester so cute. ((:
Geraldine so nice.
Munweng, ahya, dunnid say also know. She rocks. ((:
No time to talk about everyone lahhs.
But I love them!!! (especially some, *ahem ahem*)
We must jy. Must lead the council on properly.

Tomorrow I coming to school. But not going for lessons.
Zzzz.
Coz I have outreach stuff. Going clementi primary to promote RV.
With minzhang(:, yuning(: and mengping(:.
Haha.
1 o' clock end. Therefore will come back. Thus can't get back my papers.
And people!! Stay back for history papers. Miss teo said de.
Zzzz. But I can't. I got SC stuff.
Waaa!!!!

Is there a way to turn back time?

2008-10-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

Haix.
Today is damn ridiculous.
Felt like fainting.
Zzzz. Don't want to talk.
Now very scared eh. ):
Must learn how to appreciate life. Or jigsaw will come after you.
AHHHH!!!!
I damn freaked out lahhs.
If only you were there to comfort me.
Sighs.
Please don't be like that. Really. I am hurting a lot when I see you like this.
But I can just stand far away.
Sorry.

2008-10-20T20:20:00.002+08:00

Woah. Many many things to post.
First on the list, yesterday.
Hoho. YESTERDAY WAS FUN!!
We, my family, went downtown east. Woots woots woots.
My brother has his class chalet. But I'm convinced it's not considered one since only 7 people turned up.
4 girls, 3 guys. AND 1 ROOM. Seriously, what's the world coming to? (Not that last yr guys and girls didn't share a room but still...)
Then went to this new ehub thingy. Just opened de. Maybe it opened long ago. Ahya who cares?
Anyway, went the ntuc there, AND THERE'S A DEPARTMENT JUST FOR SUSHI!!!
SUSHI SUSHI SUSHI SUSHI SUSHI!! OISHI DESU!! (Lazy to type in japanese. XOXO)
Then we went cycling. HOHO. Not really fun coz it's threatening to rain. And it did. We seeked shelter at a pavilion. Anyway, went through the routes I cycled last time, during '07 class chalet. But everything is different now. Not the same anymore. NOT THE ROUTE I MEAN. LOLS NVM.
Then we went errs...oh ya.
We went to walk around downtown east again. Coz raining very heavily.
Then we went SHOPPING!!!!!
WOOTS WOOTS WOOTS WOOTS.
Well not exactly shopping, but at least we window-shopped. I AM A SHOPOHOLIC. ((:
We went tampines. THE THREE BIG MEGASTORES. THE BIGGEST IN SINGAPORE.
PRESENTING TO YOU...
GIANT! COURTS! IKEA!
Yeahuh. The biggest man. Damn nice. We went window-shopping. But got buy some stuff. Haha.
We went according to the order above. (:
IKEA has this restaurant and it's SUPER COOL.
The BBQ chickens are fantastic.
WOOTS.
We may be going there again this sat. Just for the restaurant. HOHO.
Here's some pictures.

Decided not to post the pictures. Coz some remind me of something. Ha nvm. Will post in future.

TODAY

Sighs. Experienced all sorts of feelings today.
First. TIRED. Yesterday slept so freaking late. 11 plus. That's late to me okay. LOLS.
Then woke up at 6. Coz need to go to school for SC INVESTITURE <333
Ha. Meeting starts at 8. Zimin went at 0630.
*Jaws drop* LOLS.
Then slack. And hear music. Blah blah. Then started to tie tripod, using the spars. Woah. Tie until hands pain lahhs. Minzhang helped a lot. LOLS. He is a guy marh, athletics somemore. He pulled damn hard lahhs. LOLS. Propro. Then after that, the product wasn't satisfactory enough. Then we tied again. Scary luhhs. Keep untying and tying.
In the end we decided to use gadget poles. And we tied a quadripod instead.
WE TIED A QUADRIPOD!!!
It's like, me and zimin never tied it before, munweng only tied it once, then jieying, lols dunnid to say she only sec 1....
So we just pretended it as a tripod. And tied.
Again and again.
Then in the end minzhang called munweng and zimin go help in souvenirs.
Coz they are better in art and craft wad. Not say I very good in tying...but my craftwork definitely worse.
So i solo-tie a quadripod.
AND I SUCCEEDED!! I TIED A QUADRIPOD ALL BY MYSELF!!
Knots loose lah. Coz nobody ding-jiao. Lols. This is guides language.
Munweng helped tie one diagonal lash. (:

Then me and zimin were granted permission to go for our class outing.
WOOTS.
Then we chiong there. BY TAKING TAXI.
Siao right?
Venue: Shifu's house. Hoho. Parc Vista lahhs.
Fee: $10.80 plus 30 cents for diesel. SIAO RIGHT.
SCAM LUHHS.
Hoho.
Then went in, then watch movie.
Watch watch watch. Thriller plus horror.
I like saw. Quite nice. So many twists in the story.
Like my life story.
Except not bloody.
LOLS. Then here come's the sad sad part where all of us will feel guilty and cry and blahblah.
Well...We kinda have this guides sec 2 outing on the same day as class outing - Today.
Truthfully we didn't expect it to be on marking day; we thought it was on promotion day.
Therefore, we thought after class outing, we will go guides de.
Who knows, we didn't really do much except watching movies...so we couldn't bear to leave.
So...apparently we were stuck.
Haix. I don't want to say anything anymore.
So sad luhhs. Guilty. >< Coz we should have told them earlier that we may not go. WAAAA!!
So sorry to yiyao, cherie, qingyi, jane, yantong, engting, zixin. ><
Feel so guilty. Bleh. I promise we will try to make it for the next guides outing. If we don't have school or family commitments.

Okay.

Went back early. Coz no mood liao.
And hy wants see her show. ZZZZ.
Then. I LOVE THIS PART. HOHO.
We went back, walked to cheers to buy some food, then walked to mrt station.
Then we were walking to the 5th door, as always.
Then the mrt came. Faster than us.
At first didn't rush, so counted the doors for fun.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5...
Saw this guy who wears white specs. Familiar face. Familiar hairstyle. Familiar school clothes. "Eh, is that NT? Cannot be bah. So qiao meh? Should be see wrongly bah. " I talked to myself.
Then the mrt stopped and the doors opened.
Then we rushed.
Then some people came out. Then saw him.
Then started um-chioing. Lols. Really that qiao eh?!?!
"Priscilla Tay?! Priscilla Tay?! What you doing here?!" exclaimed NT.
Zzzz. Then I just nodded. Too shocked liao.
Then we all come in. INCLUDING CYNTHIA.
Then he saw huiying and said, "Huiying?! Huiying Ong?! Ong right?!"
ROFL.
This is funnier.
"Cynthia, what you doing here?" I said. Apparently we heading to boon lay?!
Then we screamed. We three. Me, huiying and cynthia.
Then cynthia rushed out and hy pushed her. LOLS.
NT: "Waaa. Shout so loud arh Priscilla Tay?"
Zzz. He must call me liddat de horh. Like I very proud of sharing the same surname as him.
Zzzz.
Then he asked us what we doing there. Then asked who in rv.
LOLS.
Then we stoned. LENG CHANG...
Then he talked to this super-chio girl beside him. Waaa. Got gf liao lah. That's what we thought. LOLS.
Then reached bl station then walked down. Then was talking to hy about how it's so scary that we met him again blahblah then said sth about may meet another wg-ian izzit?
Then xinyi walked beside us.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No lah. Is Tan Xinyi. RV-ian too. But WG-ian too.
LOLS. Saw her in school too today.
Anyway she takes 242, and NT does too.
Then I was like, "Eh. We saw NT just now eh. He taking same bus as you. He wear specs, wear white shirt, wear white specs, with this chio-girl, probably his gf, look super retarded. Ahya. You see some retarded looking person can liao."
Apparently xy dunno how NT look like. HA. (See my english so broken? Tsktsk.)
Then was looking at the 242 queue, couldn't spot him.
"He so fast meh?" (Me)
"Later he never take this bus I laugh arh." (Hy)
Then we walked towards 243G queue.
Passing 243W, Huiying started laughing.
NT was there. LOLS.
Then hy asked, "What you doing here? I thought you take 242?"
NT started smiling his retarded smile and looked at the chio-girl, pointing at her. She was busy sms-ing, so didn't notice.
Then me and hy was like, OHHHHHHHHH.
Then we started laughing hysterically.
LOLS.
NT arh NT.
Not bad arh.
HOHO.
Then come back liao loh.
End of story. (((:

Just now hy told me about NT's dm and pm.
So she confirmed NT likes that girl.
LOLS.
Apparently he said he likes her but she will never know since he won't tell her.
Eh gor. You very retarded eh?
Using reverse psychology right?
That girl wouldn't suspect?! You take 243W specially for her eh. When your house is so far from any of the busstops. Seriously. And why don't want to tell? Retarded. Sometimes life's too short. Strike when the iron is hot, or you will never get to confess arh.

That's to everyone out there. If you like someone, just say it out lah. Beat around the bush for what. Make yourself feel worse only. Coz he/she is so nearby but you can't reach out. Whether or not you are gonna get rejected, just say. If you kena rejected, it's that person's loss man. They are blind. So, pick up your courage man. Confess to your loved one today!

What the hell did I typed? Lols. If teachers see this they will suspect something.
Don't worry. I am innocent. (:

2008-10-18T20:44:00.004+08:00

Post 140.
Sighs.
Went back school early in the morning to discuss SC investiture. I was the first to reach. (:
Then Mr Pres. Zeming. Then erms...MINZHANG.
Lols. Then everyone start coming at once.
Anyway, we went to open guides room to take some stuff. (approved by mdm ong)
Then we went to the hall to practise. Actually, with the mind of practising.
But there were a lot of loopholes in the flow of the programme we had to sit down and think instead.
Sighs. So many things haven't done yet lehhs.
I have to brief the helpers on their duties. Helpers = guides.
Apparently, Ms Tan said Mdm Ong volunteered our services.
LOLS.
Then have to do the slideshow with zimin and siwei.
(DId I mention before that siwei looks like my brother? LOLS. Dunno leh. When I look at my bro I think of siwei haha)
We build tripod!! Lols. The three muskerettes of RVGG/RVSC.
The knot was so loose. I was trying to balance it properly but it hit zimin.
Sorry zimin! ><
Then we talked and discussed until 1 plus. Then the school staff chased us out. LOLS.
And here's the horror.
We have to meet on monday to do publicity stuff for SC investiture. And we will do until quite late.
Hmms, what do we have on Monday?
Class outing. CLASS OUTING. 2A CLASS OUTING. MY CLASS OUTING. OUR CLASS OUTING.
Which means I may not be able to go to class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.
I cannot go class outing.

Someone just shoot me. Really.
WHY MUST ALL THE BAD THINGS HAPPEN AT ONCE?!!?!?!?
WHERE'S THE JUSTICE!!!!
So sad....really. My class. ):
I'm so sorry 2A, I will try to make it up to you okay? Zzz. Like how...
ARGH!!!
Zeming arh. Minzhang arh. Why put it on Monday?
I know I liddat very selfish. Zzz. But I really want to go class outing.
But don't worry. I won't pon de.
SIGHS.

I know depressing things come together. BUT OVER A PERIOD OF HOW MANY MONTHS?!
Life has no meaning. NO LAH JKJK. I still love me. (:

Just now my internet was screwed. As in TOTALLY SCREWED. Can't access any websites.
WHICH IS LIKE....HOLY MAMA. I can't live without my internet!!!
Was scolding vulgarities at the comp while we three siblings tried to solve this problem.
WOOTS. SIBLING POWER. HA.
Then my really-know-everything brother suggest restoring the settings.
I was like, huh?
And he said can choose like which date you want to reset back to, don't have to restore default.
I LOVE MY BROTHER. HE IS SO GOOD. HA.
Then we did, AND IT'S DONE! (of course lah. Or not how I post?)
Amazing thing was, throughout all these, I still can access Windows Live Messenger.
LOLS.
It's amazing how you can turn back time on the computer.
Won't it be great if we can turn back time? Like with a snap of fingers or if you concentrate really hard on that date or something.
That's what you can do on the computer.
Sighs.
If only I could turn back time....

2008-10-17T19:17:00.004+08:00

It's a depressing day. Really.
Not just because of the same old thing, but more. Sighs.
Let's start positively.
Exams are finally over. Woots.
But that means more time to let imagination run wild, and more time to think too much.
(I just can't seem to be optimistic eh?)
Went out with hy and zm to vivocity.
Ate chicken cutlet. Then ate halfway. Coz no appetite. All because of someone/something.
Then they keep forcing me to eat. -.-
But I really no appetite to eat. Then I cried.
Then zm scared liao. Ha. PS zimin. It's not because of you.
HY was like, ha. Helped me tell zm that I am thankful to her coz I could finally let it out. Said I have been controlling ever since before EOYs.
Duh. I can't let my feelings get the better of me DURING EXAMS.
But psps zimin.
Went around vivo after that. Emo-ed, but did laugh a little. Thank you zimin and hy. ((: Love you. Muacks.

Went back school for AGM. AHHH.
Discussed with program comm about SC investiture. Then went LT2.
Lols. Got a certificate for being in the 29th student council.
Then handover, then ZIMIN GOT HER GREEN ONION RINGS.
WOOTS. She looked so cute. I helped her put on one of her isignias. HAHA. So proud of my daughter.
Then we had to choose our department. Yeayea. Of course, I CHOSE MY DARLING WELFARE LUHHS. NEED SAY MORE? Zimin too. Haha. Me, yuning and her chose the same thing. Then cynthia chose differently, but only got one different.

And then the following made me real depressed.

I am not going to be in welfare anymore.
I am not going to be in welfare anymore.
I am not going to be in welfare anymore.
I am not going to be in welfare anymore.
I am not going to be in welfare anymore.
I am not going to be in welfare anymore.
I am not going to be in welfare anymore.
I am not going to be in welfare anymore.
I am not going to be in welfare anymore.

Can someone just shoot me? I don't want to live anymore. I don't want to!!! LET ME DIE!!!!
Most of the welfarians made it to welfare comm. Except for me, munweng and yuning.
SOBS. Wanted to cry, but munweng was already crying. So must not cry and must control.
A lot of new SCs go into welfare - siwei, chen hui, ALOT OF SEC 1s, AND ZIMIN.
):
No words can express my sadness.
Likai, Yuan Long, Yu Jun, Zhi Ying went in. Welfare.

Welfare arh.
You all must jiayou okay?
Must continue to take care of our favourite purple dinosaur. Must take care of our blazers. Must take good care horh. Must help one another okay? Don't pone your duties arh. Bring welfare to greater heights. I believe you all can de. WAAAA! I want to die. ):
Sobs, WELFARE!!! I WILL MISS YOU A LOT DE!!

To the 29th RVSC welfare:
Once a welfarian, always a welfarian!! We cannot lose contact okay??? Those in welfare, continue to bring welfare to greater heights. Those not in welfare anymore, no matter what, deep in our hearts, we are still one WELFARE. Slow and steady wins the race!! TURTLES/ TORTOISES RULE!! WELFARE I LOVE YOU!!

Sighs. One year lehhs. One year of doing BARNEY duty, one year of taking care of blazers, one year of raising flag. Now we wouldn't do that often anymore. ))): Coz now every SC has to raise the flag. Every SC will do BARNEY duty. So it means I won't do BARNEY duty or raise the flag very often anymore. MY BARNEY MY SCHOOL FLAG!!! )))))))))))))))));

Me, munweng, yuning, cynthia ended up in the School Spirits comm. Okay luhhs. Coz I know I am a chao-enthu kia in terms of school events. Woots. It's about mass dances and cheers!! Woots. Haha. We have to promote school spirit. So I must make everyone proud of RV. ((:
Mass dance mass dance!! I love mass dance!!

But still, I am not in welfare anymore.

Sighs. That sense of loss is so familiar. Nvm. Welfare, I will miss you. Really. Though I know Welfare won't be the same old Welfare anymore. I don't know if that's a happy or sad thing. Sighs.

Today's chinese paper is okay.
Except...
Why must the passages remind me of my problems?
And I ain't thinking too much loh.
First compre passage, about keeping promises.
Second, about treasuring the people you love.
Third, about never giving up.
Zzzzzz.

So many things to make me depressed.
And to add it above all, I HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW.
Feel so paiseh to darling hy. ):
Already promised to go out with her tomorrow de. But then suddenly got this....
Oh ya. She pierced her ears liao.
And I haven. All thx to AGM. My mom thinks I got too many stuff so don't let me pierce.

Nvm. I don't mind actually. Because it is for the council.
We must be proud of the student council.
(:
JIAYOU BAH 30TH STUDENT COUNCIL!!
Though the road ahead is long and harsh, we can overcome it if we work as a team.
Remember what our teachers said. (:

TERMINUS A QUO!!

2008-10-16T19:46:00.003+08:00

English was....okay.
Except for the vocabulary.
Sighs.
Went out to eat with ahgong and hy. At jp.
Saw a bunch of 2J guys at kopitiam.
Lols. JEC close down for renovations right?
Soon people will be flocking to JP.
After that went popular slack-slack.
Stayed in CD Rama for about 15 minutes. Cool.
Went back home after that.

As seen from above, my life is BORING.
Lucky tomorrow's the last paper.
Woots.
After that still got SC AGM.
SIGHS. Starts at 1 lehhs.
Then our paper ends at 10?!
Lucky got hy to accompany me.
But then can't go see movie with 2A. Sobs.
After AGM, I am gonna pierce my ear.
Yeahuh. PRISCILLA IS GOING TO PIERCE HER EAR.
Hy too.
At gekpoh. Haha. So sad we can't go at the same time. Coz of AGM.
But at least it's on the same day! BFF!

So AGM better not end late. 2 hours means 2 hours horh. Zeming, you must keep to your word orh. (:

Priscilla has got a funny feeling in her tummy.
She's having gastric flu. Blehhs.

Going on with hy on saturday!!! YAYS!!!

Feeling weird. Suddenly can't type emo posts anymore. Glad I have split personality.

2008-10-15T21:39:00.003+08:00

Muahaha.
This blog is officially OPEN to everyone.
(:
Anyone can come and see my blog now. Ha.
Tag before leaving!!

See that I haven't been updating often? (from my dates)
No lah, is I deleted some posts.
Must be discreet liao haha.

2008-10-08T20:27:00.002+08:00

I promise not to emo during the EOYs.
If you see that I am silent or blanked-out, I am probably thinking about Mao Zedong or Cartesian Coordinate System or maybe Enzymes.
So don't worry I not free to emo.
Everything will be settled after EOYs.
I promise. (:

JIAYOU FOR EOYS!!

2008-09-24T20:03:00.002+08:00

Haix. Sorry guys. I know I promised. But I just can't but feel a sense of emo-ness crawling over me. I didn't really EMO anyway. But still, sorry.
But what you did was really too much you know. You could have at least told me. But you didn't. And then you said I lied to you. What??? Who lied to who??
Sighs.
You guys are the reason why I promised not to emo you know that? So please. Don't make me go back on my word.
And you. I seriously don't know what to say to you.

Cried on 166. A bit only lah. Too tired already. Really.
Lucky god isn't so unfair.
During the biology mass lecture, I suddenly thought of him. Yea him. But I just really want to see him badly. Dunno why.
And then I saw him at boonlay station.
I started screaming. And yea hell I was. Except no sound came out.
God granted me this wish. Thank you thank you thank you!
But he was with another girl. O.O
No strings attached arh...
Lols. Huiying- Can't believe I could actually suddenly think of him during lesson. Forgot to tell you that loh. Zzzz.
Bet with Hy 5 cents that he can't recognise me.
And he didn't!!
Is that good or bad?
Well, no matter what, I won 5 cents. Woots. Worth opening champagnes for celebration.
But so sad luhhs. He can't recognise me.

Then we took 181. He took 242.
Then my mom told me she at Westgrove.
Then I walked to my void deck, the part facing westgrove.
Then saw 242. AND SAW HIM AGAIN.
Zzzz. He was walking behind my mom.
ROFL.

I think he is cuter le. Except his hair a bit weird and he looks bigger.
But still cute.
Huiying beg to differ though.
LOLS.

Just trying to capture those last joyful happy moments- I love you.

2008-09-23T21:19:00.003+08:00

Today was....okay.
Yeahuh. Lucky Ms Teo was fine. PHEW.
Chinese CID...ROCKS.
Except for the part I print wrong stuff.
Sorry gals.
But still we own. Muahaha. Slacked throughout the whole CID.
Xinyi arh...jyjy.
LOLS. Stop puking arh. Or almost-puking.
(:
Lessons were satisfactory.
Since when have I been a lesson critic?
Nvm. Total randomness.

Interesting event of the day: LUNCH

IT ROCKS. MUAHAHA. So nice eating lunch with primary schoolmates- Huiying darling and *ahgong*. (: Then keep teasing him about her. Then he keep teasing me about him. You 欠打 huh? Lols. But nvm. Since I got to tease you too. Muahaha. I shall be generous and forgive you. Wow if he sees this he sure ask me de. LOLS. We had a great time gossiping arhx. Next time must meet up for lunch again. LOLS. Maybe invite her along??? XDXD Muahaha. Seriously miss primary school days luhhs. Miss all WGPS 6E'06 peeps!! Most of you won't be able to read this though. LOLS.

Jiayou jiayou SPEECH AND DRAMA!!
WE MUST OWN!!
MUAHAHA.

2008-09-22T19:21:00.001+08:00

I love the new me.
Muahaha.
Three more days to speech and drama!!
Jiayou worhs people.

Jiayou to you too (:

2008-09-21T22:21:00.001+08:00

Thanks guys who attempted to cheer me up.

You've succeeded!! Lols.

Don't worry. I won't emo over that stupid guy anymore.

Muahaha. I am gonna start life anew as the enthu PRISPRIS.

Muahaha. Watch out people.

She's on the way.

2008-09-14T12:56:00.003+08:00

HSK then CIP.
Though some unhappy things happened, hope you guys enjoy it.
(:
I really enjoyed myself.
And sorry to people who think I didn't do anything but scream and shout at you all.
Yea I know I am such a lousy leader.
Nvm. I promised myself not to make myself emo.

Thanks to all who put in effort into this CIP.
It was a success.
I am glad we had this CIP.
2A-one for all and all for one.
Especially the game we played after that.
LOLS. It was hiong.
People fell down and everyone rushed to help.
Though it's a small action, I am really touched to see what happened.
That's what friends are for right?
((((:
2A owns. -smiles-

JYJY! Let's maintain this class spirit.
Till the end of time. Heehee.
And ohyea, let's make class chalet even better, shall we?

Loves to all 2A-ians.
Smile always!

Cheers.

2008-09-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

Why can't my dad understand that going to Japan is a rare opportunity??
I can take care of myself I am sure.
Can't you just believe in me?
Everytime we fight, because of RV.
What's the point?
StudentCouncil, girlguides, immersion programmes, basically school activities.
I know you don't like me going to RV.
You want me go Nanyang.
I tell you it will be worse.
Coz nanyang has more of these.
And if I go there I will be double as busy.
Wanna bet?
Send me there now lah!
Why can't you just understand it's not all about studies anymore?
Good leadership and cca also help you okay!
And you are destroying my dream you know that.
I jolly well know that I need a scholarship then you will allow me to go overseas.
You don't let me join, HOW THE BLOODY HELL I GET A FREAKING SCHOLARSHIP!!!
You are destroying my future when you think you are helping me.
I give up.
I won't bother to explain to you anything anymore.
I will just let you ruin my future.
And one day you will regret.

2008-09-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

Life sucks. Bigtime.
School term just started. EOYs coming.
Each day is just plain getting worse.
I am so freaking depressed.
People don't understand me.
Which hurts alot.
They just accuse me.
They misunderstand what I meant. They misunderstand my intentions.
Sighs. Why should I even be bothered?
Life can never go right for me.
For once, I hope to see myself writing a enthu-and-not-emo post.
But fate doesn't seem to allow that.

I hate myself for ~~loving you~~ too much.
Are you okay?

2008-09-06T13:08:00.004+08:00

1 more day. Yays. I can't wait to get back to school.
It's so boring at home. Sighs.
Just finished typing LA essay.
Die le. 1000 plus words. Trying to cut down.
Sighs. Why must the maximum be 500? =P

Please don't misunderstand.
I guess we don't really understand each other at all. Sighs.
We are probably not meant to be.

比想象中更痛
你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走
都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重
谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了
谁还想哭呢
再勇敢地站着
找回光和热
面对你的时候
我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客
因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠
就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手
本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢
谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

眼泪都笑了
谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的
就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候
我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾
因为我已爱过你
深深的

This song shall be my goal. (: To forget you. But to keep those one-of-a-kind memories.

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And Ill never criticize all youve ever meant to my life

(chorus)
I dont want to let you down
I dont want to lead you on
I dont want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just cant live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
Theres nothing left to say but good-bye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
Im not sure Im worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

(chorus)
you would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just cant live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
Theres nothing left to try
Though its gonna hurt us both
Theres no other way than to say good-bye

2008-09-04T20:10:00.001+08:00

shucks. Watching Garfield now. LOLS.
Holidays are uber boring. Sighs.
Tomorrow we meeting up to do hwk together.LOLS.
Short post. Sighs.

2008-09-03T11:32:00.008+08:00

Post #124.
Sorry to those who really cared about me but I can't help it. >< It isn't something I want. I want back the hyper-enthu me. But even if I am, I know I am just lying to myself. I've done enough lies. I've done enough foolish things. I am blinded. I am so stupid. I can't even bring myself to face the truth. I should have known better. I am a fool. A retard.

Played badminton with bunch of 2A-ians at gpcc again. Me, hy, xinyi, jacky, yuyan and sx. Sorry we can't ask too many people. Coz we've only one court. ><

Lols. That's jacky using my phone to take this tower of Ice Milo cups. (: And there's my girl onghuiying. <3

Too lazy to rotate the picture. But that's me, hy, sx and yy. Yeayea. (: Again masterwork by Jacky chua. Using my phone.

Lols. Then I suddenly chiong out of KFC. Without saying bye. Sorry guys. Mom says if I dont get home in 10 minutes' time, my handphone will be gone. >< Went home to cry. Yeayea. Blahblah. *nothing to say*

Mixture of song lyrics running through my head now

"I know I've been selfish, I know I've been foolish, but look through that, and you will see."
"This heart of stone will sinks till it dies, if you leave me tonight"
"If you change your mind, well then that's the way it goes"
"If it's over, let it go and come tomorrow it will seem so yesterday"
“只是他一直都没有，能发现她一直陪在他的身边，只要他一回头就能发现。。。”
“可能你从来没感觉到，最好你永远感觉不到，爱上你越来越无可救药”
“请原谅我，原谅我不成熟，不爱你是借口，好让你离开我”
“我宁可说，她比我适合”
“原谅我，比谁假装爱错，别让时间倒流，我怕说不出口。”
“别无所求，彻底忘了我，爱原来要舍得。。”
“你那么爱他，为什么不把他留下，为什么不说心里话”
“逃生的路会在哪里”
"It's a shame, that it have to be this way, it's not enough to say I'm sorry"

Tough. Let me tell you. If someone cuts open my brain he/she will see nothing but a messy pile of words. Because there's so many things I want to say but I can't. There's so many things I want to tell him but I can't.
I can't forgive myself. Not yet. My conscience doesn't allow me to. And I won't talk to him. Not now. Sighs. I am sorry.
I am such an idiot.

2008-08-31T20:27:00.002+08:00

Emo again. Wtf. It's becoming part of my everyday life.
Tomorrow's really busy. Cid, Speech and drama and history.
Yays. At least keeps my mind off stuff.
Nothing much to post about.
Holidays suck. Coz you will have a lot of time to think about some stuff.
And nothing special happen so you cant post.
Lucky it's just a week.
Sighs.

Emo. Emo. Emo.
It's my middle name.
Like Priscilla Emo Tay.
PET. lols. HMMS. Cool. Haha.

Looked through the periodic table(yeayea) and realised Platinum's chemical formula is Pt.
PT. Platinum. Physical Training. Priscilla Tay.
I've got lots of nicknames. (:

2008-08-29T15:19:00.006+08:00

To Jerian: Daddy, I wasn't even there. I went home le. LOLS.

Teachers' day. Had party. Great. Went to support jacky at badminton. With hy. Then hy and me went jp look for huimin. Ate lunch. Ahgong, ziqian and michelle came. Then we crapped. Okay lah. Haix. But what we talked about made me emo. Sighs. Then they went wgps, me and hy went home. Hy went home sleep. I went home emo.

I am a jinx. I hurt people around me. And I cannot do anything.
I cannot get too close to people. I cannot get too close to him. He will get hurt.
It's ironic how I'm stressing to the class about the little time we have with one another and me myself trying to break myself away from him.
I told a lie. A white lie. I'm sorry.
I did it because I wanted to make myself feel better.
Sighs.
I knew it was impossible. So I had to say it. But I have never liked him.
Because you took my heart.
And you wouldn't want to return it back.
I tried to pull myself away. And I guessed I've hurt you in the process.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean to.
But I'm afraid I would go crazy over you again.
I don't want to, because I know it's impossible for you to reciprocate.
I want to go away.
You two are really compatible. (: And I ain't trying to make myself better. Maybe he is better off with you than with me.

Bleh. It's the holidays.

2008-08-27T20:03:00.000+08:00

WE GOT SECOND FOR STORYTELLING!!

2008-08-26T17:40:00.002+08:00

Fell sick. Didn't go to school. Finished art. Stoopid mom threatened not to letme go SC camp if I don't sleep.
BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE SLEEPING! I AM NOT EVEN TIRED LAH.
And I need to study for my maths test tomorrow.
Why can't she understand?
She doesn't bother to. And she keeps saying I am being rebellious.
What?! I am just voicing out my own opinions. Is that wrong? I have human rights. I have the right to ask for what I wished. And it's not even demanding to go for a camp.
She's freaking biased against teenage kids. Coz she thinks they are rebellious and don't listen and think they are very big blah blah blah.
And worse, she thinks I am one of them.
Damn.

2008-08-24T20:43:00.002+08:00

August 24. Emo-day.

Keep raining. Tempted to emo. Unable to resist temptations.
Therefore emo.
No lah no lah. Got reason de lah. HAIX.

Welcome to my life-Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down? (Uh huh.)
Do you ever feel out of place? (Okay lah.)
Like somehow you just don't belong (Yea.)
And no one understands you (Ditto.)
Do you ever wanna runaway? (Many times.)
Do you lock yourself in your room? (No. Scared parents suspect.)
With the radio on turned up so loud (Later kena complaint.)
That no one hears you screaming (Screaming silently. Counted?)
No you don't know what it's like (Insulted.)
When nothing feels all right (See? I know.)
You don't know what it's like (I JUST KNOW.)
To be like me (Like you?)

To be hurt (Wow.)
To feel lost (Yup.)
To be left out in the dark (Not really.)
To be kicked when you're down (Nobody kicks me.)
To feel like you've been pushed around (That's or sure.)
To be on the edge of breaking down (And no one's there to save you...)
And no one's there to save you (Great emo-minds think alike.)
No you don't know what it's like (I just proved I do.)
Welcome to my life (Yea. Welcome to mine too.)

Do you wanna be somebody else? (I'm fine about myself thank you.)
Are you sick of feeling so left out? (I'm not left out.)
Are you desperate to find something more? (Yea. Him. But I guess it's too late.)
Before your life is over (Duh.)
Are you stuck inside a world you hate? (No.)
Are you sick of everyone around? (No.)
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies (No they don't have!)
While deep inside you're bleeding (That's true.)
No you don't know what it's like (I DO.)
When nothing feels all right (Everything's wrong.)
You don't know what it's like (Damn you.)
To be like me (I ain't wanna be like you.)

No one ever lied straight to your face (For sure?)
No one ever stabbed you in the back (How you know whether got anot?)
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay (Duh. Ditto.)
Everybody always gave you what you wanted (Who says?)
Never had to work it was always there (No way.)
You don't know what it's like, what it's like (Yes I know, yes i do.)

Going crazy le. Actually replying to song lyrics.
!!!
Everything happened too late.
I got what you mean, and what you are trying to imply.
But I don't believe it.
It's not exactly impossible. But it's definitely not something that have ever crossed my mind.
I...He...It's probably me thinking too much.
I do, of course, meant what I said to you. About the order.
I...am not even sure if...they..
Nvm.
As you can see I am really really confused.
I want to go away. Away to study. Go overseas. Now.
Somewhere far away from here.
From him.
Somewhere like New Zealand. Or Australia.
Like ruixiong. Going overseas to study.
Getting away.
I just want to forget everything.
Forget him.

Is it right for me to want to continue our friendship?
Losing faith. Every single second.
Suddenly I'm not interested in THAT anymore.
THAT referring to something that links the two of us together.
Why am I even bothering to explain??
No one understands me.
I am glad I chose to act as a emo girl in Speech and Drama.
Coz I guess that's the real me.
I dunno.
I am so so confused.

Sighs.

2008-08-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

The tables are turned. Things have changed. But I'm glad we still remain the same.
I'm glad we got our stuff settled. I'm glad we are okay now.
But if this happens one more time, I doubt I will be able to take it.
You promised me; I will remember.
Don't hurt me again okay?
I hold you to your word.

The 7 of us are going to take on OM again.
YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!
OM ROCKS OM ROCK OM ROCKS!!!!
MUAHAHA.
I LOVE ODYSSEY OF THE MIND!!!!!
Mr Tan told zh they all. Then say is more difficult.
But nvm. As long as we are united, we can do it. (:
But there might be a problem. Age limit.
I hope we can solve that. (:
AND LET'S JOIN OM AGAIN!!!
WOOTS!
7 of us, together, working as one. We rule.
This time must fly to USA. (:

2008-08-20T20:57:00.002+08:00

I own chinese. Muahaha. Write wrong paragraph for summary. Yeas. Me, yuyan and huiying. Too distracted. LOLS.
Played netball. Hmms. Kena thrashed. 9-0. Lols. But good game. (:
Emo for the rest of the day. Cried during bus trip to yakult factory.
The yakult person was real funny. I dunno wat is he called. Promotor?
Anyway he's our senior. Rv. He very cute. His actions all look like Desmond. LOLS. And desmond never go.
I think the teachers pekcek with the yakult promotor. 'Cause he crapped too much. But he made me laugh. And I am grateful to him.
Went around to visit the various processes taking place to make the yakult. Cool.
Bought two packets of yakult.
Went home. Emo on the way back. Didn't cry coz no more tears left.
Yays.

So it's not entirely over yet I guess. I don't know whether I should feel happy or sad. I don't know if it's too late for you to say what you said today. I don't know what I am supposed to do. You managed to turn my life upside down. But I don't blame you. I blame myself. But I can't bring myself to forgive you. Not yet. Not now. I really want to go back to last time, like how you want to. But certainly it's impossible now. I'm sorry.

2008-08-19T20:56:00.001+08:00

Sorry dad, I supposed you have to have heartaches for a few more days.
I will be depressed for a few more days. Worse than now.
But don't worry. I will be fine.

It's all over. And it hurts.

2008-08-18T19:52:00.003+08:00

Bleh. I am going to flunk the common test. Nvm. I shall try to pia during end-of-year. Now, just let me try my best. Jiayou jiayou jiayou!

Never underestimate the power of love.

Lols. That's super random. But anyway.

I am super bored. Chemistry is such a mystery. LOLS. And my brother is not free to teach me, coz he got prelim tomorrow. Haha jiayou worh!

I just want to let everything go. Let it all go. Maybe I won't be that hurt if I learn to let things go. Maybe if I can just forget everything. Maybe.
Don't we all?

2008-08-17T17:39:00.004+08:00

Slacking now. Singapore TT team did us proud. =D Even though it's a silver, it's still a medal. =D Well done girls!

I love the song 走火入魔. It's super super nice. I love it I love it I love it!

And I like 萧敬藤 and 林宥嘉. Their songs are super nice!!

And I love 张信哲. You all must go hear his songs. They are really really nice.

Gosh I am crazy over these people. Haha.

永远的情歌王子张信哲. He rocks.

走火入魔 by 阿信/丁当

信: 對不起剛才我是不是聽錯
還是我想太多想到了昏頭
丁: 天氣不錯開了窗吹走臉紅

信: 進一步退一步都害怕打破
更不想在原地永遠作朋友
丁: 給你線索也給我勇敢藉口

丁: 下定決心沈默
信: 就讓沈默為我們追究
丁: 你和我信: 這一刻丁: 無聲的信: 耳語交流
合: 卻突然震耳欲聾

信: 一字一句一瞬間走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼入了魔
信: 忘了我從什麼時候
丁: 忘了你為什麼能夠讓我
合: 一步一步走火入魔
丁: 和我

信: 一直猜一直想一直的揣摩
一直到你變成甜蜜的心痛
丁: 如果可以把如果變成結果

丁: 下定決心執著
信: 就讓執著為我們突破
丁: 我和你信: 的小說丁: 這時候信: 出現煙火
合: 讓情節充滿感動

信: 一字一句一瞬間走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼入了魔
信: 忘了我從什麼時候
丁: 忘了你為什麼能夠讓我
合: 一步一步走火入魔

信: 一字一句一瞬間走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼入了魔
信: 如果你有相同感受
丁: 感受到有種突然的衝動
合: 放肆一次走火入魔和我

信: 一字一句一瞬間走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼入了魔
信: 忘了我從什麼時候
丁: 忘了你為什麼能夠讓我
合: 一步一步走火入魔

信: 一字一句一瞬間走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼入了魔
信: 如果你有相同感受
丁: 感受到有種突然的衝動
合: 放肆一次走火入魔和我

信: 如果你有相同感受
丁: 感受到有種突然的衝動
合: 放肆一次走火入魔和我

I love this song. It reminds me of...something.

*smiles*

2008-08-15T21:49:00.002+08:00

Bleh. Bleh. Bleh.
I hate my life.
Emo-kia, people call me.
And there's others who are kinda worse than me.
I dunno what to type here.
My eyes are too tired, from all the crying.

I got my bill and my parents made a big fuss about it. 57 bucks.
Wait till they see my shifu's or shimu's bills. Then they will know how good I am le.
No offence to shifu and shimu.
Bleh. My life sucks.
You think only yours does?

Sometimes I wonder how our lives were so unluckily entwined together.
I suddenly regretted joining that competition.
A lot.
And great. More tears flowing.
I am sinking into emo-ness le. Coz of the fweaking influence by others.
The only thing good is, my smses won't bao4 coz I have nobody to sms to le.
After we quarrelled.
But you...nvm.
I don't want to say anymore.
Only makes my life suck more.

You are okay you know. You are just degrading yourself. Build up on your self-esteem. Probably this way your crush will notice you better. And no use blaming people who humiliate you in front of her. Coz you know when you blame him, someone's heart will be hurt.
I am sure you don't want to hurt your sister.

I don't hate you. But pls just stop this madness.
I just want to go back to SEC 1. Minus the crushes.
HAIX.

2008-08-14T19:15:00.002+08:00

Bleh. El today. Suck.
Bleh. I suck at everything.
I am going to flunk this test. As in all the subjects.
And it seems like no one believes.
I'VE GOT STORYTELLING REHEARSAL, GUIDES PHOTOTAKING, SC PHOTOTAKING AND GEOGRAPHY TEST TOMORROW.
Wow.
And so you believe I have a chance to flunk my tests?
Yes, you will.

No sms-ing, no chatting, no nothing, blah blah blah, except the MUGGING part.
So don't be shocked if I don't sms you. LOLS. Guess no one will be.
But anyway, there are still some people...
Nvm.

I seriously don't understand you people.
You(girl) and you(guy).
Argh.
Emo-ing for dunno what reason?
I can't say anything coz I am like that too.
But at least I emo FOR a reason.

I told him my secret. And I pray he won't tell.
You better not arh. Or I will tell yours.
*smiles*

Haix. Haix. Haix. Haix. I don't want to talk about it.
You are taking me for granted. So I will have to stop.

2008-08-11T21:40:00.004+08:00

Today was fun. And weird.
We played badminton. You really don't need to know with who. And him. Yea the mysterious him. Just like NT. And you don't have to know who's NT. But anyway, hy agrees. And you dunnid to know who's hy. LOLS. You should know. HE was pekcek. Coz me and hy keep talking about him and NT but he don't knows what we are talking about.
I suck at badminton. I rest my case. Bleh.
Went to gekpoh for dinner at night. Something funny happened.
I went to the old bookshop to buy my pen refills. The small squeezy one. Normally it was this curly-hair, fat but friendly guy at the counter, I know since I go there almost everytime to buy stationeries.
This time it was a cute undergrad student. Kinda cute. Tot he was the old man's son. Who cares man. My main aim there was to buy refills, not to know who this cute guy is. LOLS. Then this auntie, who also oversees the shop, asks me: "Do you find him handsome?"
I am suffering from a broken jaw coz my jaw hit the floor way too hard. (quoted from YY)
I stammered a " Okay lah..."
The guy whispered to me, "She very lame right?"
Of course the auntie didn't hear. And she continued by saying, "His teacher say he very handsome leh."
....
He is cute and handsome. But you asking me to say that in front of him? That's super embarrassing. What else can I say? "Ya of course he's super cute."(Ya he is) and then suffer from a state of major embarrassment. Praising a stranger. A cute stranger somemore.
I realise I couldn't stop saying how cute he is. Coz he is!! So cute lah. Haha. And handsome. (: *grins cheekily*

This is from a book- "The Year of Secret Assignments". Cute. I like it.
"Dear Charlie,
Lately I have been thinking a lot of the idea of hurting yourself, and I have some conclusions, which are:
(a) It's okay to hurt yourself in little ways. For examples, it's okay to scrape your knuckles on a brick wall and make yourself bleed a bit. It's okay to bite the middle part of your thumb as hard as you can and leave tooth marks. It's okay to slap the palm of your hand against a mirror until it cracks, and maybe you get a cut. Those things are okay.
(b) It's not okay to hurt yourself a LOT e.g. suicide or eating disorders.

Love, Em"

True. Sometimes you just had to hurt yourself for the sake of your loved ones. That's sacrifice. And I am willing to sacrifice myself anytime for them. And even for him.

是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受

让你疯让你去放纵
以为你有天会感动
关于流言我装作无动于衷

直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁

既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心你是否能够要得回

怎么忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞才会
陷入感情漩涡
怎么忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞伤痛我背

2008-08-11T08:39:00.002+08:00

Woah. Been lagging again.
Many stuff happened. National Day, Olympics.
Okay. Maybe not many.
National Day in school. I totally suck man. Can't even balance properly when we keblakan(how to spell?). Anyway it means turning back. Sucks man. But munweng says my flag-raising was good. Haha. Zeming says it's not. Bleh. Went into the hall for indoor celebrations. At first very not-high coz we realise the rest of the guides sitting together and only we three 2A-ians sit with our class. But then after that the singing part we were super high. Thanks to yours truly, huiying and zimin. We started holding hands and singing and Woah. Cool. Shows 2A's spirit.
After that waited for Huiying and Zimin coz they have COH. Then we went shooting. At first want to eat lunch together de. But then emo me suddenly backed out. I also dunno what happened. I just turned into "depressed" mode and did not want to join them for lunch anymore. Sorry about it. Anyway I went JP to window-shopping. Didn't want to go home so early or my mom will realise something is wrong. Went to my favourite hideout Toys R' US. Saw some RV scouts. Lucky is not our class de. Went to ground level and saw minghong, hongwoon, shenyang, eugene, daniel and kelmond. At KFC. They were chatting happily (cliche). I stood there for a moment to observe them. Kelmond grew taller. Eugene looks better. Daniel became whiter(GOSH!). Hongwoon looks the same. Minghong, I see him everyday so what's the point of describing him?
Anyway minghong was the one who noticed me. Then I jus walked away without saying HI to the rest. Note my mood when I was there.
Walked back home from JP.

At night
The opening ceremony for the Olympics was nice. Goddamn nice. But some parts were exaggerated. Like the flying of the torch-lighter(is that what we call him?) and the scroll thingy.
But woah. They did us Chinese proud.

Slack slack and slack the next day. Then went to my uncle's apartment in Rivervale Condo. Did my hwk there. Relatives seem pissed off coz it's National Day so I shouldn't be doing any hwk. Most said I became darker. Aunties crowd around me to ask how I slimmed down. Ridiculous I thought. I so did not slim down. The aunties must have not seen me for A LOONG TIME. True.
Watch "They kiss again" with Xinyi. My cousin. And zann. Truth is, I am closer to xinyi than zann. Though the age difference. Then I saw desmond. His hair was back. LOLS. Coz he went reservis last time and had a GI haircut. Now he looks....like the older version of my brother. LOLS.
They Kiss Again is nice. Haha. Xiang qin is so cute. Zhi Shu is so cool. *Smiles* (:
Ah Jin is retarded. Christine is so so....(i dunno). Well, I am talking about the part where there's this foreign student called Christine who fell in love with Ah Jin. At first Xiangqin thought she would fall for Zhi Shu, coz Christine likes his type. But Christine's finance looks exactly like Zhi Shu, and she hates him. An unexpected twist of events when everyone thought Xiangqin was pregnant. She wasn't lah. Stoopid eh, dunno how to go for checkup. Then after checkup already leh, cry like she cannot be pregnant anymore. Ridiculous.
But without all this drama, how can the show be nice?

LOLS.

2008-08-05T20:51:00.002+08:00

Woots! I am finally back. After a long long break.
No time. Blah blah blah. Basically hwk has been piling on my table. Every night sleeping at 11 plus, coping with sc elections, common tests. Basically no room for blogging.
But today is special. =D Coz I left my hwk file in school! Yays! Cheers for pris.
Thus. Her Highness is back. LOLS. Her Highness of the blog. =DD
Kay, lots of ppl complaining they cannot navigate. Will change blogskin asap.

NDP contigent. Moi the flag-raiser. Heehees. With this scout called kit kay. He's funny. Really. No experience in raising flags. Die le loh. Today so funny. Haha. Must practice more loh. Coz the flag is longer than his body. He is 177 cm. 0.0

Tomorrow is campaigning. I think I will die from embarrassment.
Jia you Jia you Jia you!
LOLS. I think I will freak out. Coz I didn't campaign last year.
Did I kinda mention it before?
Nvm. Good luck to moi. Gasps. I really need that.

In love with the song "Never had a Dream come true" by S Club 7.
Rocks my world. And kinda fits my world too.
Listening to it now. Haix.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you know

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And so my road can never be
cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you

We belong to different worlds. But will we meet once again?
DAMN.

2008-07-26T17:48:00.002+08:00

Post number 108.
I love Pahang trip.
I love 2A. But sometimes...I feel like I am not a part of the class. I dunno. Just like I am an outsider, where I cannot join them in any fun stuff. Like the class breakfast. And the class outing.
The night where we got busted. I keep feeling they are blaming me. Because I don't want to get 2A into trouble. Wei Ren told me his teacher go and tell Mrs look that his class met up. And they got scolded. All because they go into a girl's room. I didn't want that to happen to 2A. But apparently it seemed like I as the one who spoilt all the fun.
It makes me feel......like a stranger.
The way jeremy was pissed off at us. It seems unfair. But I couldn't do anything. Coz I am afraid one move on my part and I will cause the class to break up. The way the guys said about zimin. I really can't see us as a class. But I tried to hide everything. But I am afraid I won't hold on for long. It all doesn't make sense. People keep saying we are bonded, and yet to me, it doesnt seem so. Guys teasing girls. Of course, some of us are really bonded. But note the word "some". Others seem like outsiders. No matter how they tried, they cannot be inside that bond. Because of some personal feelings. And I keep thinking how I feel like I am one of them.

I dunno what is wrong with me. I feel like I have changed. Become worse. I dunno what is happening. How i treat my clique yesterday. I feel like I have become like her. I feel bad. I dunno what I am turning into. God someone help me man.

I keep saying I love welfare. I keep saying I love guides. I keep saying I love 2A.
But how do I continue to love them when some people in them hate me and dislike me and can't wait to throw me out? How do I continue to if these three groups are not even bonded together?

I want to. But I dunno how long I can hold. For now, I will just take it that I am doing all this for 2A. And I hope things will change for the better.

Now I will just have to concentrate on the elections.

2008-07-21T18:56:00.002+08:00

I AM FINALLY POSTING. YAYS.
Tomorrow we are finally going west malaysia.
Yays.
Let's talk about today.
Erms. Food bazaar. Then patronised seniors' stalls. Then no money left. ._."
Then watch concert. So funny. The sec 1 guy with the tie is so freaking damn shuai4!! OMG. He's so cute loh. And somemore came out with Nicole. Haha. They very pei4. Me and sarah were like going crazy over him man. LOLS.
Then ate lunch. With the PRCs. I very pek cek with them. Grr. Nvm. Lucky I am not seeing them for three days. Phew. (Ya I know, I am bad. Whatever.)
Then go meet class in LT2. Then cried. Ya. Weird right. Partly coz I so pek cek with the PRCs till I cried. Scary right. You should have seen what they did. Argh. And then I also missed the class so badly. So freaking badly. Waa. I am like class-sick?! Weird right. Then zimin asked what will happen to me if I am not in the same class as 2A anymore? Haix. I really love 2A. LOLS. Really. We are one big family.
Then got this stupid lecture. The one by Mr Lai is so freaking boring. Mr Tan is still the best. Haha. The best Geography teacher. We are so fortunae to be taught by him. LOLS.
Then went to put blazer in SC room. Then my darlings checked out SC noticeboard. I AM IN!! YAYS!! I AM IN!!
I think I very lucky le lor. I never even go for interview can. Yays. I love council. <333
Then had clique outing. Ate KFC. Then took neoprints. Xinni was with us. =DD
Then me and hy went home.
And that's the end of today's happenings.

I am so bored now. Shall go watch youtube. > . <

*My heart aches at the sight of him.
*My heart aches at the sound of his voice.
*My heart aches at the thoughts of our memories.
*I am just hoping it will not ache anymore.

2008-07-17T20:35:00.002+08:00

TODAY WAS FUN!! WEEE!!!
Left mathematics lesson halfway. =D
Played basketball, netball and badminton. With the Sino-Sing people.
SO FUN!! WEE!!
Then ate lunch, and prepared to go SCIENCE CENTRE.
On bus trip super sian. Start sms-ing people. But they haven't released. LOLS.
Anyway the bus too small le. Dunno what the teacher is thinking, call a 25-seater bus when there is 30-over people.
Reach le. Yays.
Went to this new exhibition, called H20-Water for life.
SO COOL!! (ya i know i am sua ku)
Then we go omni-theatre. Watch the Grand Canyon.
Anyway the place sure brings back old memories.
Remembered the time some of us go host the beijing people? Around this time too.
Then we went omni-theatre? And we started taking each other pictures. LOLS. Chasing one another.
Anyway, after omni-theatre then we go look around.
TOOK LOTS AND LOTS OF PICTURES. =DDDD
Then after that, all the fun was over.
We saw them up the bus, then all of us chiong to mac.
=DDD Then we eat together. Quite bonded arh? =DD

I love today. Tomorrow we walking the bridge. My third time le leh.
Today is still the best. With all the memories flooding back.
He says I am sentimental. LOLS.
*His smses remind me of someone. But I am probably just thinking too much.*

-Near yet far. Close yet distant. How long are we going to stay like this? Tired.-