Post number 108.
I love Pahang trip.
I love 2A. But sometimes...I feel like I am not a part of the class. I dunno. Just like I am an outsider, where I cannot join them in any fun stuff. Like the class breakfast. And the class outing.
The night where we got busted. I keep feeling they are blaming me. Because I don't want to get 2A into trouble. Wei Ren told me his teacher go and tell Mrs look that his class met up. And they got scolded. All because they go into a girl's room. I didn't want that to happen to 2A. But apparently it seemed like I as the one who spoilt all the fun.
It makes me feel......like a stranger.
The way jeremy was pissed off at us. It seems unfair. But I couldn't do anything. Coz I am afraid one move on my part and I will cause the class to break up. The way the guys said about zimin. I really can't see us as a class. But I tried to hide everything. But I am afraid I won't hold on for long. It all doesn't make sense. People keep saying we are bonded, and yet to me, it doesnt seem so. Guys teasing girls. Of course, some of us are really bonded. But note the word "some". Others seem like outsiders. No matter how they tried, they cannot be inside that bond. Because of some personal feelings. And I keep thinking how I feel like I am one of them.

I dunno what is wrong with me. I feel like I have changed. Become worse. I dunno what is happening. How i treat my clique yesterday. I feel like I have become like her. I feel bad. I dunno what I am turning into. God someone help me man.

I keep saying I love welfare. I keep saying I love guides. I keep saying I love 2A.
But how do I continue to love them when some people in them hate me and dislike me and can't wait to throw me out? How do I continue to if these three groups are not even bonded together?

I want to. But I dunno how long I can hold. For now, I will just take it that I am doing all this for 2A. And I hope things will change for the better.

Now I will just have to concentrate on the elections.

5:48 PM sprinklinq love Y

I AM FINALLY POSTING. YAYS.
Tomorrow we are finally going west malaysia.
Yays.
Let's talk about today.
Erms. Food bazaar. Then patronised seniors' stalls. Then no money left. ._."
Then watch concert. So funny. The sec 1 guy with the tie is so freaking damn shuai4!! OMG. He's so cute loh. And somemore came out with Nicole. Haha. They very pei4. Me and sarah were like going crazy over him man. LOLS.
Then ate lunch. With the PRCs. I very pek cek with them. Grr. Nvm. Lucky I am not seeing them for three days. Phew. (Ya I know, I am bad. Whatever.)
Then go meet class in LT2. Then cried. Ya. Weird right. Partly coz I so pek cek with the PRCs till I cried. Scary right. You should have seen what they did. Argh. And then I also missed the class so badly. So freaking badly. Waa. I am like class-sick?! Weird right. Then zimin asked what will happen to me if I am not in the same class as 2A anymore? Haix. I really love 2A. LOLS. Really. We are one big family.
Then got this stupid lecture. The one by Mr Lai is so freaking boring. Mr Tan is still the best. Haha. The best Geography teacher. We are so fortunae to be taught by him. LOLS.
Then went to put blazer in SC room. Then my darlings checked out SC noticeboard. I AM IN!! YAYS!! I AM IN!!
I think I very lucky le lor. I never even go for interview can. Yays. I love council. <333
Then had clique outing. Ate KFC. Then took neoprints. Xinni was with us. =DD
Then me and hy went home.
And that's the end of today's happenings.


I am so bored now. Shall go watch youtube. > . <


*My heart aches at the sight of him.
*My heart aches at the sound of his voice.
*My heart aches at the thoughts of our memories.
*I am just hoping it will not ache anymore.

6:56 PM sprinklinq love Y

TODAY WAS FUN!! WEEE!!!
Left mathematics lesson halfway. =D
Played basketball, netball and badminton. With the Sino-Sing people.
SO FUN!! WEE!!
Then ate lunch, and prepared to go SCIENCE CENTRE.
On bus trip super sian. Start sms-ing people. But they haven't released. LOLS.
Anyway the bus too small le. Dunno what the teacher is thinking, call a 25-seater bus when there is 30-over people.
Reach le. Yays.
Went to this new exhibition, called H20-Water for life.
SO COOL!! (ya i know i am sua ku)
Then we go omni-theatre. Watch the Grand Canyon.
Anyway the place sure brings back old memories.
Remembered the time some of us go host the beijing people? Around this time too.
Then we went omni-theatre? And we started taking each other pictures. LOLS. Chasing one another.
Anyway, after omni-theatre then we go look around.
TOOK LOTS AND LOTS OF PICTURES. =DDDD
Then after that, all the fun was over.
We saw them up the bus, then all of us chiong to mac.
=DDD Then we eat together. Quite bonded arh? =DD

I love today. Tomorrow we walking the bridge. My third time le leh.
Today is still the best. With all the memories flooding back.
He says I am sentimental. LOLS.
*His smses remind me of someone. But I am probably just thinking too much.*



-Near yet far. Close yet distant. How long are we going to stay like this? Tired.-

8:35 PM sprinklinq love Y

Aww. Four days of non-posting.
Too busy with the immersion programme. Anqing No. 4 middle school.
=DD I love my buddy. She is very cute. And chio. I like her dimples.
Her name is Zhu Ying.
I love her. And I bet she loves me.
But I am too busy with sc and class stuff.
Today I got racial harmony day audition, thus I can't go for the national museum trip.
Then tomorrow I got sc interview.
HAIX.
Don't really know what to post. But anyway.
GREAT JOB 2A-IANS!! WE LOVE YOU!! YOU DID A GREAT JOB!! WHETHER OR NOT WE GO IN, 2A WILL RAWK ON!!

I LOVE 2A.





*Since you've let it go, I should too.*

7:25 PM sprinklinq love Y

Post number 104.

West division day.
Won three prizes.
Darling jasmine, darling yiyao, and one more sec 1 group.
Jasmine joined talentime. And emergred champion!!
Of course, with my darling fangqi, yuting and jane.
FANGQI AND YUTING LOOKS SO PRO CAN?!
And shuai4 qi4.
Yiyao joined fashion parade(as usual). And of course, with her good looks and cute face, she emerged champion. And also with the help of darling qingyi, cherie and cheryl.
The other group...i not very sure. But anyway they got second.
Three cheers!

But I don't think anyone has the mood to now.
Haix. I really hope she's okay. I am really really afraid now.
Though tix says her condition is stabilised.
Me and hy were the first ones to see her fall.
Okay, maybe not exactly. But we were behind her. A few steps away.
Sorry for posting this out, but I really need to get it off my chest.
The way she fell down, the way she had the fits. The way she looked helpless.
I can't erase it out of my mind.
It's just embedded there. Stuck. Permanent.
We tried to lift her up. But we couldn't/
Till we reach the top of the escalator.
Then a nice uncle helped us carry her up. And onto the ground.
I called the ambulance.
I was really really afraid. What is going to happen?
But I ain't going to make things worse by crying. And I helped.
Everyone crowded around. While she's still shaking uncontrollably coz of the fits. Then passers-by and one of our guides' mom went to help. Coz they ARE more experienced. I was really afraid for her.
Then I searched her bag to find her phone so that we can inform her mom.
Omg. I really don't know how to break the news to her. I let Ms Yang did it.
I was really afraid. Lost. Shocked. Stunned. Somemore she was vomitting bai mo.
Very scary. Very.
Then finally she came to consciousness. And I was like totally relieved. But then when she asked "where am i going to?" I freaked out again. But then relief when she still knows her name. Mdm Ong and Ms Yang asked us go back first. Then we did. When we reached the control station, I cried.
Hy cried too. I mean, we were like the people behind her. We were the one who knew everything that happened. Plus jasmine and yantong who were behind us. And it was scary. Scary. Coz it reminded me of an incident that happened to me a few years back.
Now I don't dare cry, coz my family is outside. But inside me, I am sobbing uncontrollably. I am really really afraid. Now everything that my family does, I will asked them to be careful. I will scold my brother everytime he tries to play. I don't want to be like this. But I am afraid something may happen to them too.
I am afraid. I am afraid my friends, my family will suddenly leave without notice.
I am suddenly so afraid of death.
Please be okay.
Please recover quickly.
Or I will be guilty for the rest of my life. Coz I didn't know what to do and my reaction was too slow. If I reacted faster, she won't be like this. She won't.
I am lost. I am afraid. I am scared. And I am now sobbing uncontrollably.

9:12 PM sprinklinq love Y

Post number 113.

Starting from yesterday.
The most memorable thing that happened to me: Falling down the stairs and acting as the principal in Speech day rehearsal.

Huanglaoshi wanted to find the rest of the class coz they go speech and drama. Then I chiong down the stairs. Then suddenly. BAM! I fell. At first it was okay...then during malay lesson it started hurting. Argh.
After that went for barney. Helped out a little in arranging chairs for speech day. Told gerry that I hurt my ankle. Then I go continue to move chairs. Then she scolded me. T.T
Stood beside zoenin to continue to watch the rest of the performance. Dance is nice!! So is choir!! Then after that is prize presentation. Ms ek is sitting down there. Then Mr tan asked me go act as her and stand on the stage beside mr chua. Waa. Damn embarrassing seh. Zihao, munweng, yimin, joyce, tiehong, and the scs were there. LOLS. Then ms ek said, "Not bad ar. She looks like me."

......
The principal said I look like her.


Today was okay. Except I wore slippers coz my ankle really hurts. But I still can walk normally. Pro right. Normally people with sprained ankle walk until damn dramatic. Me abnormal. Thanks for those who expressed concern about my foot. =DD Especially tanyujun, zhiying, cherylsim, onghuiying, limyuyan, linda, foozimin, mr gan, ms lim, ms cindy ong, and many-more-but-cant-remember-who.
Play with balloons during art. Yays. I like balloons. <33
Then lang arts was okay. Ms chew is cool. As in, with the strict-calm-cool headed kinda cool. I dunno. Stupid hk saboed me. >< *pouts*
Saboed hk during chinese to read. Priscilla has exacted revenge. Haha. JKJK.
Maths: test. DIE.
Science: Challenge with hk, see who can get more questions correct. He won, I think. ><
HK IS GETTING PRO-ER. WATCH OUT PPL. HAHA.

After that, went to massage leg. I tell you horh, is not pain at all loh. He sent electricity through, then my foot went numb. Apparently that was to loosen the muscles up. Then he started rubbing and twisting. And I don't feel pain. Basically, that means my sprain will take quite a while to heal. Coz it still hurts if I bend it. Argh. DIE.


I won't be with 2A for audition. Haix. HAIX. ARRRGGHH. HK must jiayou with the all-racist-and-talk crap role okay? Jiayou jiayou. And Jeremy with the song. And the girls with the dancing, guys with the singing. Although priscilla can't be physically there with you, she will be spiritually there. LOVE YOU 2A!!
Guess where I will be when you are performing? HISTORY MUSEUM. THAT IS SO COOL.
(Note the sarcasm pls.)

7:10 PM sprinklinq love Y

"直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个
美好风景　只是他早已离去
直到你想通　他早已经　不再对你留恋
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎

你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他 为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔"

Haix. Haix. Haix. Reality hits. And it's all because of me. Me. Moi. My fault.
Me.







Anyway I will be missing 2A next week...I won't really be in class for some of the days...Will be running here and there. Haix. The Sino-Singapore Exchange thingy loh. Lucky I am not the hosting buddy. I'm just the supporting buddy. Yays. At least I can spend time with darling 2A.

I LOVE 2A!!

8:49 PM sprinklinq love Y

POST 101.

Ironic how things that happened to us are connected to one another.
Wait. Before I go on, my whatever-emo-possibly speech may not be in chronological or even logical order.
"I am counting down the minutes till you break the silence."

And I am counting down the days you give me a good explanation.
What's going on? Why is everything like this? My girl-friends. Somehow or another they will bring this subject up. And I know it can't be avoided. But I can't help it. It takes two hands to clap.
Sometimes I really just want to sit down and start screaming into my pillow and start suffocating myself. But what's the point. Nothing. It won't solve anything. Except for making me less depressed for a minute. Then reality just hits.
How am I going to know how you feel if you don't talk? Say it out. Tell me. No. You didn't.
It just isn't the same anymore. I know. But I did try to salvage it. All you did was to push me away.
Sometimes I really wonder if it is like worth it to fret over this. What if I am here almost going crazy, yet you are just having fun and playing with your friends. What if I am thinking too much.
What if..... All these just come to my mind. And now I dunno what to write. Wait. Lemme think.
When your friends mentioned about you emo-ing, I thought at least you had the heart. You know. You still care. You do, but you don't dare to show it. Coz you are afraid I'll make the same mistake again. That was what I thought. But who is there to gurantee I am right? Who is there to say that I predicted correctly, that you still want to salvage it? Nobody. It's only you and me. And we're not even talking. Maybe a little. But still. Not like last time.

Fine. All I can say is, though chances are we will never be the same again, I still hope we find a day to talk to each other. Maybe not talk. But you know. Have a conversation. That's what my girl-friends and I did, and now I am saying that we are closer than ever. Not saying we will, but at least I have the right to know what is going on.
Sometimes I really admire myself for being able to type everything out without anyone knowing what's going on. As in, there's no content or whatsoever. Maybe some of my girl-friends will know. Will understand. But I think nobody else will. Which makes the whole point of typing this out useless.

"Am I thinking too much"
"Am I making things worse"
"Am I making a mountain out of a molehill"
"All I know is"
"I want you to tell me the truth"


Tired. Really tired. But nobody knows. No one understands.

10:27 PM sprinklinq love Y

This is my 100th post for lala-applelicious!!
I'm so proud. =D

Well, and I am just dedicating this post to my gor-gor.
Happy birthday. (though it's a day early, 'coz I probably can't post tomorrow.)
Though we rarely talked, I am still giving you my best wishes. =D
And I think I can't give you anything.
Coz now I am broke. ><
But still, happy birthday.

2:40 PM sprinklinq love Y

But then I changed my mind. And I am posting now. Because I saw a quiz.

#1 The person who tagged you is: Cynthia
#2 Your relationship with her is: she's my MOMMY<3
#3 Your 5 impressions of her: RANDOM, Likes to hug people, good leadership, TALL, good fashion sense.
#4 The most memorable thing she has done for you: Keep my secret
#5 The most memorable word she has said to you: IDK.
#6 If she becomes your lover, you will: Die. Coz thunder will strike.
#7 If she was your lover, a few things she has to improve on will be: Don't be so tall.
#8 If she becomes your enemy, you will: Die too.
#9 If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: We hate one another which is highly impossible.
#10 The most desired thing you want to do for her now is: Solve all the freaking clique problems.
#11 Your overall impression of her is: TALL AND RANDOM.
#12 How do you think about how people around you will feel about you: Pessimistic. Emo. Some actually say I am sociable and zi-high. Okay. Maybe sometimes.
#13 The character you love about yourself is: Being sensitive enough.
#14 On the contrary, things that you hate about yourself: Being emo-kia.
#15 The most ideal person you want to be is: No one. To me, no one is perfect.
#16 For people that care about and like you, say something to them: thanks a l0t. I really need them now.
#17 Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you
(Can post to those who don't have blogs right? Or not can't think of many.)
1)Huiying
2)Zimin
3)Yuyan
4)Xinyi
5)Pekkhoon
6)Shimin
7)Desmond
8)Jerian
9)Jacky
10)ShaoXun

#18 Who is 6 having relationship with? Errs.
#19 Is 9 a female or a male? Male. DUH.
#20 If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? No. Someone will be jealous and may kill Desmond.
#21 How about no.8 and 5? Uh. Uh. Uh. LOLS.
#22 What is no.2 studying about? She studies?! No lah. Kidding. Everything!
#23 When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Just 10 minutes ago.
#24 What kind of music band does no.8 like? I dunno. Oh dear me.
#25 Does no.1 has any siblings? Nuh-uh.
#26 Will you woo no.3? What?! And get killed by someone else?! No way.
#27 How about no.7? Errs. No.
#28 Is no.4 single? Yup.
#29 What's the surname of no.5? Chong.
#30 What's the hobby of no.4? Singing? Talking about "the polo-tee guy".
#31 Do no.5 and 9 get along well? Guess so.
#32 Where is no.2 studying at? RVHS.
#33 Talk something casually about no.1. She's so motherly to her "kids".
#34 Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? Errs. HE'S MY DAD!
#35 Where does no.9 lives? Westwood bah. In a semi-detached terrace. He's rich.
#36 What color does no.4 like? Shit. No, i mean I dunno. (Note to self to ask her)
#37 Are no.5 and 1 best friends? Guess so.
#38 Does no.7 likes no.2? OMG. Put two of them together and you get hell. No lah. Kidding.
#39 How do you get to know no.2? I picked her up from the garbage and adopted her as my daughter. KIDDING. We were telling jokes to one another. That's how we started. LOLS.
#40 Does no.1 have any pets? Not that I know of. Impossible.
#41 Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? You asking me?!

5:39 PM sprinklinq love Y

It just isn't the same anymore.
Basically everytime I post, I will feel tired.
Because before posting on this I will post on my clique blog.
And I will cry and cry and cry.
Then in the end I have no more strength.



So I ain't gonna post anything today.
Just note that Priscilla is tired. And Priscilla wants to die.

5:28 PM sprinklinq love Y

I don't feel like blogging le.
Blogged too much on clique blog. Then super tired.
Cried too much today.
Somemore guides got punishment.
After that still got training for swimming.
Will blog more in future.
But for now, won't be updating for awhile.
Lotsa stuff need to get out of my head first before there's space for reflecting on my day.
And zihao told me about om members maybe need to go up on stage on speech day receive prizes. Coz he heard our names.
DIE LIAO LORH. WEST DIV DAY AND SPEECH DAY. DIE LIAO.
Let's hope I don't have to split myself up again seh. HAIX.


HAIX.
HAIX.
HAIX.

10:30 PM sprinklinq love Y

Welcome to lala-applelicious.blogspot.com

Can't say how I feel,
can't tell if my heart would heal,
but I knew that from the start,
I never really had your heart.
So leave me now before I cry.
The pain's too much to say goodbye.
But always remember in each tear I shed,
is an 'I love you' left unsaid.

"'Wait!' That's what I said before you went away.
Wait, that's what I'm doin' until today.
Wait forever I guess I will,
I just wish I could have told you,
'Wait! I love you still....'"

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Priscilla
A.k.a Prism(:
02/05/94
WGPS <3 1D, 2F, 3C, 4H, 5M, 6E
RVHS <3 1A, 2A, 3A
RVGG <3 DOVE!
RVSC <3 29th Welfare! 30th SPIRITS!
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♥Everlastiinq Love
♥Everlastiinq Happiness
♥Everlastiinq Chocolates
♥Everlastiinq Emo-ness
Sleeping
Swimming
Reading
Television
Chinese pop
Him ):

abbusers
liers
insects
durians
gossipers
BackSTABBERS
betrayers
the RUDES

Worldpeace
To get into a good university.
To be a good daughter.
To be a good friend.
To stay happy
For HIM to stay happy forever.

::Often we say goodbye
to the person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean
that we've stopped loving them
or we've stopped caring.
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say
I love you.::
-Unknown-