Emo again. Wtf. It's becoming part of my everyday life.
Tomorrow's really busy. Cid, Speech and drama and history.
Yays. At least keeps my mind off stuff.
Nothing much to post about.
Holidays suck. Coz you will have a lot of time to think about some stuff.
And nothing special happen so you cant post.
Lucky it's just a week.
Sighs.

Emo. Emo. Emo.
It's my middle name.
Like Priscilla Emo Tay.
PET. lols. HMMS. Cool. Haha.

Looked through the periodic table(yeayea) and realised Platinum's chemical formula is Pt.
PT. Platinum. Physical Training. Priscilla Tay.
I've got lots of nicknames. (:

8:27 PM sprinklinq love Y

To Jerian: Daddy, I wasn't even there. I went home le. LOLS.

Teachers' day. Had party. Great. Went to support jacky at badminton. With hy. Then hy and me went jp look for huimin. Ate lunch. Ahgong, ziqian and michelle came. Then we crapped. Okay lah. Haix. But what we talked about made me emo. Sighs. Then they went wgps, me and hy went home. Hy went home sleep. I went home emo.

I am a jinx. I hurt people around me. And I cannot do anything.
I cannot get too close to people. I cannot get too close to him. He will get hurt.
It's ironic how I'm stressing to the class about the little time we have with one another and me myself trying to break myself away from him.
I told a lie. A white lie. I'm sorry.
I did it because I wanted to make myself feel better.
Sighs.
I knew it was impossible. So I had to say it. But I have never liked him.
Because you took my heart.
And you wouldn't want to return it back.
I tried to pull myself away. And I guessed I've hurt you in the process.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean to.
But I'm afraid I would go crazy over you again.
I don't want to, because I know it's impossible for you to reciprocate.
I want to go away.
You two are really compatible. (: And I ain't trying to make myself better. Maybe he is better off with you than with me.

Bleh. It's the holidays.

3:19 PM sprinklinq love Y

WE GOT SECOND FOR STORYTELLING!!

8:03 PM sprinklinq love Y

Fell sick. Didn't go to school. Finished art. Stoopid mom threatened not to letme go SC camp if I don't sleep.
BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE SLEEPING! I AM NOT EVEN TIRED LAH.
And I need to study for my maths test tomorrow.
Why can't she understand?
She doesn't bother to. And she keeps saying I am being rebellious.
What?! I am just voicing out my own opinions. Is that wrong? I have human rights. I have the right to ask for what I wished. And it's not even demanding to go for a camp.
She's freaking biased against teenage kids. Coz she thinks they are rebellious and don't listen and think they are very big blah blah blah.
And worse, she thinks I am one of them.
Damn.

5:40 PM sprinklinq love Y

August 24. Emo-day.

Keep raining. Tempted to emo. Unable to resist temptations.
Therefore emo.
No lah no lah. Got reason de lah. HAIX.

Welcome to my life-Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down? (Uh huh.)
Do you ever feel out of place? (Okay lah.)
Like somehow you just don't belong (Yea.)
And no one understands you (Ditto.)
Do you ever wanna runaway? (Many times.)
Do you lock yourself in your room? (No. Scared parents suspect.)
With the radio on turned up so loud (Later kena complaint.)
That no one hears you screaming (Screaming silently. Counted?)
No you don't know what it's like (Insulted.)
When nothing feels all right (See? I know.)
You don't know what it's like (I JUST KNOW.)
To be like me (Like you?)

To be hurt (Wow.)
To feel lost (Yup.)
To be left out in the dark (Not really.)
To be kicked when you're down (Nobody kicks me.)
To feel like you've been pushed around (That's or sure.)
To be on the edge of breaking down (And no one's there to save you...)
And no one's there to save you (Great emo-minds think alike.)
No you don't know what it's like (I just proved I do.)
Welcome to my life (Yea. Welcome to mine too.)

Do you wanna be somebody else? (I'm fine about myself thank you.)
Are you sick of feeling so left out? (I'm not left out.)
Are you desperate to find something more? (Yea. Him. But I guess it's too late.)
Before your life is over (Duh.)
Are you stuck inside a world you hate? (No.)
Are you sick of everyone around? (No.)
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies (No they don't have!)
While deep inside you're bleeding (That's true.)
No you don't know what it's like (I DO.)
When nothing feels all right (Everything's wrong.)
You don't know what it's like (Damn you.)
To be like me (I ain't wanna be like you.)

No one ever lied straight to your face (For sure?)
No one ever stabbed you in the back (How you know whether got anot?)
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay (Duh. Ditto.)
Everybody always gave you what you wanted (Who says?)
Never had to work it was always there (No way.)
You don't know what it's like, what it's like (Yes I know, yes i do.)


Going crazy le. Actually replying to song lyrics.
!!!
Everything happened too late.
I got what you mean, and what you are trying to imply.
But I don't believe it.
It's not exactly impossible. But it's definitely not something that have ever crossed my mind.
I...He...It's probably me thinking too much.
I do, of course, meant what I said to you. About the order.
I...am not even sure if...they..
Nvm.
As you can see I am really really confused.
I want to go away. Away to study. Go overseas. Now.
Somewhere far away from here.
From him.
Somewhere like New Zealand. Or Australia.
Like ruixiong. Going overseas to study.
Getting away.
I just want to forget everything.
Forget him.

Is it right for me to want to continue our friendship?
Losing faith. Every single second.
Suddenly I'm not interested in THAT anymore.
THAT referring to something that links the two of us together.
Why am I even bothering to explain??
No one understands me.
I am glad I chose to act as a emo girl in Speech and Drama.
Coz I guess that's the real me.
I dunno.
I am so so confused.

Sighs.

8:43 PM sprinklinq love Y

The tables are turned. Things have changed. But I'm glad we still remain the same.
I'm glad we got our stuff settled. I'm glad we are okay now.
But if this happens one more time, I doubt I will be able to take it.
You promised me; I will remember.
Don't hurt me again okay?
I hold you to your word.

The 7 of us are going to take on OM again.
YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!
OM ROCKS OM ROCK OM ROCKS!!!!
MUAHAHA.
I LOVE ODYSSEY OF THE MIND!!!!!
Mr Tan told zh they all. Then say is more difficult.
But nvm. As long as we are united, we can do it. (:
But there might be a problem. Age limit.
I hope we can solve that. (:
AND LET'S JOIN OM AGAIN!!!
WOOTS!
7 of us, together, working as one. We rule.
This time must fly to USA. (:

10:35 PM sprinklinq love Y

I own chinese. Muahaha. Write wrong paragraph for summary. Yeas. Me, yuyan and huiying. Too distracted. LOLS.
Played netball. Hmms. Kena thrashed. 9-0. Lols. But good game. (:
Emo for the rest of the day. Cried during bus trip to yakult factory.
The yakult person was real funny. I dunno wat is he called. Promotor?
Anyway he's our senior. Rv. He very cute. His actions all look like Desmond. LOLS. And desmond never go.
I think the teachers pekcek with the yakult promotor. 'Cause he crapped too much. But he made me laugh. And I am grateful to him.
Went around to visit the various processes taking place to make the yakult. Cool.
Bought two packets of yakult.
Went home. Emo on the way back. Didn't cry coz no more tears left.
Yays.

So it's not entirely over yet I guess. I don't know whether I should feel happy or sad. I don't know if it's too late for you to say what you said today. I don't know what I am supposed to do. You managed to turn my life upside down. But I don't blame you. I blame myself. But I can't bring myself to forgive you. Not yet. Not now. I really want to go back to last time, like how you want to. But certainly it's impossible now. I'm sorry.

8:57 PM sprinklinq love Y

Sorry dad, I supposed you have to have heartaches for a few more days.
I will be depressed for a few more days. Worse than now.
But don't worry. I will be fine.



It's all over. And it hurts.

8:56 PM sprinklinq love Y

Bleh. I am going to flunk the common test. Nvm. I shall try to pia during end-of-year. Now, just let me try my best. Jiayou jiayou jiayou!

Never underestimate the power of love.

Lols. That's super random. But anyway.

I am super bored. Chemistry is such a mystery. LOLS. And my brother is not free to teach me, coz he got prelim tomorrow. Haha jiayou worh!

I just want to let everything go. Let it all go. Maybe I won't be that hurt if I learn to let things go. Maybe if I can just forget everything. Maybe.
Don't we all?

7:52 PM sprinklinq love Y

Slacking now. Singapore TT team did us proud. =D Even though it's a silver, it's still a medal. =D Well done girls!

I love the song 走火入魔. It's super super nice. I love it I love it I love it!

And I like 萧敬藤 and 林宥嘉. Their songs are super nice!!

And I love 张信哲. You all must go hear his songs. They are really really nice.

Gosh I am crazy over these people. Haha.

永远的情歌王子张信哲. He rocks.


走火入魔 by 阿信/丁当


信: 對不起 剛才我 是不是聽錯
還是我 想太多 想到了昏頭
丁: 天氣 不錯 開了窗 吹走臉紅



信: 進一步 退一步 都害怕打破
更不想 在原地 永遠作朋友
丁: 給你 線索 也給我 勇敢藉口



丁: 下定決心 沈默
信: 就讓沈默 為我們追究
丁: 你和我 信: 這一刻 丁: 無聲的 信: 耳語交流
合: 卻突然震耳欲聾



信: 一字一句一瞬間 走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼入了魔
信: 忘了我從什麼時候
丁: 忘了你為什麼能夠讓我
合: 一步一步 走火入魔
丁: 和我



信: 一直猜 一直想 一直的揣摩
一直到 你變成 甜蜜的心痛
丁: 如果 可以 把如果 變成結果



丁: 下定決心 執著
信: 就讓執著 為我們突破
丁: 我和你 信: 的小說 丁: 這時候 信: 出現煙火
合: 讓情節充滿感動


信: 一字一句一瞬間 走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼 入了魔
信: 忘了我從什麼時候
丁: 忘了你為什麼能夠讓我
合: 一步一步 走火入魔


信: 一字一句一瞬間 走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼 入了魔
信: 如果你有相同感受
丁: 感受到有種突然的衝動
合: 放肆一次 走火入魔 和我


信: 一字一句一瞬間 走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼 入了魔
信: 忘了我從什麼時候
丁: 忘了你為什麼能夠讓我
合: 一步一步 走火入魔


信: 一字一句一瞬間 走了火
丁: 一天一點一轉眼 入了魔
信: 如果你有相同感受
丁: 感受到有種突然的衝動
合: 放肆一次 走火入魔 和我


信: 如果你有相同感受
丁: 感受到有種突然的衝動
合: 放肆一次 走火入魔 和我

I love this song. It reminds me of...something.

*smiles*

5:39 PM sprinklinq love Y

Bleh. Bleh. Bleh.
I hate my life.
Emo-kia, people call me.
And there's others who are kinda worse than me.
I dunno what to type here.
My eyes are too tired, from all the crying.

I got my bill and my parents made a big fuss about it. 57 bucks.
Wait till they see my shifu's or shimu's bills. Then they will know how good I am le.
No offence to shifu and shimu.
Bleh. My life sucks.
You think only yours does?

Sometimes I wonder how our lives were so unluckily entwined together.
I suddenly regretted joining that competition.
A lot.
And great. More tears flowing.
I am sinking into emo-ness le. Coz of the fweaking influence by others.
The only thing good is, my smses won't bao4 coz I have nobody to sms to le.
After we quarrelled.
But you...nvm.
I don't want to say anymore.
Only makes my life suck more.

You are okay you know. You are just degrading yourself. Build up on your self-esteem. Probably this way your crush will notice you better. And no use blaming people who humiliate you in front of her. Coz you know when you blame him, someone's heart will be hurt.
I am sure you don't want to hurt your sister.

I don't hate you. But pls just stop this madness.
I just want to go back to SEC 1. Minus the crushes.
HAIX.

9:49 PM sprinklinq love Y

Bleh. El today. Suck.
Bleh. I suck at everything.
I am going to flunk this test. As in all the subjects.
And it seems like no one believes.
I'VE GOT STORYTELLING REHEARSAL, GUIDES PHOTOTAKING, SC PHOTOTAKING AND GEOGRAPHY TEST TOMORROW.
Wow.
And so you believe I have a chance to flunk my tests?
Yes, you will.

No sms-ing, no chatting, no nothing, blah blah blah, except the MUGGING part.
So don't be shocked if I don't sms you. LOLS. Guess no one will be.
But anyway, there are still some people...
Nvm.

I seriously don't understand you people.
You(girl) and you(guy).
Argh.
Emo-ing for dunno what reason?
I can't say anything coz I am like that too.
But at least I emo FOR a reason.

I told him my secret. And I pray he won't tell.
You better not arh. Or I will tell yours.
*smiles*

Haix. Haix. Haix. Haix. I don't want to talk about it.
You are taking me for granted. So I will have to stop.

7:15 PM sprinklinq love Y

Today was fun. And weird.
We played badminton. You really don't need to know with who. And him. Yea the mysterious him. Just like NT. And you don't have to know who's NT. But anyway, hy agrees. And you dunnid to know who's hy. LOLS. You should know. HE was pekcek. Coz me and hy keep talking about him and NT but he don't knows what we are talking about.
I suck at badminton. I rest my case. Bleh.
Went to gekpoh for dinner at night. Something funny happened.
I went to the old bookshop to buy my pen refills. The small squeezy one. Normally it was this curly-hair, fat but friendly guy at the counter, I know since I go there almost everytime to buy stationeries.
This time it was a cute undergrad student. Kinda cute. Tot he was the old man's son. Who cares man. My main aim there was to buy refills, not to know who this cute guy is. LOLS. Then this auntie, who also oversees the shop, asks me: "Do you find him handsome?"
I am suffering from a broken jaw coz my jaw hit the floor way too hard. (quoted from YY)
I stammered a " Okay lah..."
The guy whispered to me, "She very lame right?"
Of course the auntie didn't hear. And she continued by saying, "His teacher say he very handsome leh."
....
He is cute and handsome. But you asking me to say that in front of him? That's super embarrassing. What else can I say? "Ya of course he's super cute."(Ya he is) and then suffer from a state of major embarrassment. Praising a stranger. A cute stranger somemore.
I realise I couldn't stop saying how cute he is. Coz he is!! So cute lah. Haha. And handsome. (: *grins cheekily*

This is from a book- "The Year of Secret Assignments". Cute. I like it.
"Dear Charlie,
Lately I have been thinking a lot of the idea of hurting yourself, and I have some conclusions, which are:
(a) It's okay to hurt yourself in little ways. For examples, it's okay to scrape your knuckles on a brick wall and make yourself bleed a bit. It's okay to bite the middle part of your thumb as hard as you can and leave tooth marks. It's okay to slap the palm of your hand against a mirror until it cracks, and maybe you get a cut. Those things are okay.
(b) It's not okay to hurt yourself a LOT e.g. suicide or eating disorders.

Love, Em"

True. Sometimes you just had to hurt yourself for the sake of your loved ones. That's sacrifice. And I am willing to sacrifice myself anytime for them. And even for him.



是否对你承诺了太多
还是我原本给的就不够
你始终有千万种理由
我一直都跟随你的感受

让你疯让你去放纵
以为你有天会感动
关于流言我装作无动于衷

直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁

既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心你是否能够要得回

怎么忍心怪你犯了错
是我给你自由过了火
让你更寂寞才会
陷入感情漩涡
怎么忍心让你受折磨
是我给你自由过了火
如果你想飞伤痛我背

9:40 PM sprinklinq love Y

Woah. Been lagging again.
Many stuff happened. National Day, Olympics.
Okay. Maybe not many.
National Day in school. I totally suck man. Can't even balance properly when we keblakan(how to spell?). Anyway it means turning back. Sucks man. But munweng says my flag-raising was good. Haha. Zeming says it's not. Bleh. Went into the hall for indoor celebrations. At first very not-high coz we realise the rest of the guides sitting together and only we three 2A-ians sit with our class. But then after that the singing part we were super high. Thanks to yours truly, huiying and zimin. We started holding hands and singing and Woah. Cool. Shows 2A's spirit.
After that waited for Huiying and Zimin coz they have COH. Then we went shooting. At first want to eat lunch together de. But then emo me suddenly backed out. I also dunno what happened. I just turned into "depressed" mode and did not want to join them for lunch anymore. Sorry about it. Anyway I went JP to window-shopping. Didn't want to go home so early or my mom will realise something is wrong. Went to my favourite hideout Toys R' US. Saw some RV scouts. Lucky is not our class de. Went to ground level and saw minghong, hongwoon, shenyang, eugene, daniel and kelmond. At KFC. They were chatting happily (cliche). I stood there for a moment to observe them. Kelmond grew taller. Eugene looks better. Daniel became whiter(GOSH!). Hongwoon looks the same. Minghong, I see him everyday so what's the point of describing him?
Anyway minghong was the one who noticed me. Then I jus walked away without saying HI to the rest. Note my mood when I was there.
Walked back home from JP.

At night
The opening ceremony for the Olympics was nice. Goddamn nice. But some parts were exaggerated. Like the flying of the torch-lighter(is that what we call him?) and the scroll thingy.
But woah. They did us Chinese proud.

Slack slack and slack the next day. Then went to my uncle's apartment in Rivervale Condo. Did my hwk there. Relatives seem pissed off coz it's National Day so I shouldn't be doing any hwk. Most said I became darker. Aunties crowd around me to ask how I slimmed down. Ridiculous I thought. I so did not slim down. The aunties must have not seen me for A LOONG TIME. True.
Watch "They kiss again" with Xinyi. My cousin. And zann. Truth is, I am closer to xinyi than zann. Though the age difference. Then I saw desmond. His hair was back. LOLS. Coz he went reservis last time and had a GI haircut. Now he looks....like the older version of my brother. LOLS.
They Kiss Again is nice. Haha. Xiang qin is so cute. Zhi Shu is so cool. *Smiles* (:
Ah Jin is retarded. Christine is so so....(i dunno). Well, I am talking about the part where there's this foreign student called Christine who fell in love with Ah Jin. At first Xiangqin thought she would fall for Zhi Shu, coz Christine likes his type. But Christine's finance looks exactly like Zhi Shu, and she hates him. An unexpected twist of events when everyone thought Xiangqin was pregnant. She wasn't lah. Stoopid eh, dunno how to go for checkup. Then after checkup already leh, cry like she cannot be pregnant anymore. Ridiculous.
But without all this drama, how can the show be nice?

LOLS.

8:39 AM sprinklinq love Y

Woots! I am finally back. After a long long break.
No time. Blah blah blah. Basically hwk has been piling on my table. Every night sleeping at 11 plus, coping with sc elections, common tests. Basically no room for blogging.
But today is special. =D Coz I left my hwk file in school! Yays! Cheers for pris.
Thus. Her Highness is back. LOLS. Her Highness of the blog. =DD
Kay, lots of ppl complaining they cannot navigate. Will change blogskin asap.

NDP contigent. Moi the flag-raiser. Heehees. With this scout called kit kay. He's funny. Really. No experience in raising flags. Die le loh. Today so funny. Haha. Must practice more loh. Coz the flag is longer than his body. He is 177 cm. 0.0

Tomorrow is campaigning. I think I will die from embarrassment.
Jia you Jia you Jia you!
LOLS. I think I will freak out. Coz I didn't campaign last year.
Did I kinda mention it before?
Nvm. Good luck to moi. Gasps. I really need that.

In love with the song "Never had a Dream come true" by S Club 7.
Rocks my world. And kinda fits my world too.
Listening to it now. Haix.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you know

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And so my road can never be
cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you

We belong to different worlds. But will we meet once again?
DAMN.

8:51 PM sprinklinq love Y

Welcome to lala-applelicious.blogspot.com

Can't say how I feel,
can't tell if my heart would heal,
but I knew that from the start,
I never really had your heart.
So leave me now before I cry.
The pain's too much to say goodbye.
But always remember in each tear I shed,
is an 'I love you' left unsaid.

"'Wait!' That's what I said before you went away.
Wait, that's what I'm doin' until today.
Wait forever I guess I will,
I just wish I could have told you,
'Wait! I love you still....'"

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Priscilla
A.k.a Prism(:
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Sleeping
Swimming
Reading
Television
Chinese pop
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abbusers
liers
insects
durians
gossipers
BackSTABBERS
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the RUDES

Worldpeace
To get into a good university.
To be a good daughter.
To be a good friend.
To stay happy
For HIM to stay happy forever.

::Often we say goodbye
to the person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean
that we've stopped loving them
or we've stopped caring.
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say
I love you.::
-Unknown-