Post number 108.
I love Pahang trip.
I love 2A. But sometimes...I feel like I am not a part of the class. I dunno. Just like I am an outsider, where I cannot join them in any fun stuff. Like the class breakfast. And the class outing.
The night where we got busted. I keep feeling they are blaming me. Because I don't want to get 2A into trouble. Wei Ren told me his teacher go and tell Mrs look that his class met up. And they got scolded. All because they go into a girl's room. I didn't want that to happen to 2A. But apparently it seemed like I as the one who spoilt all the fun.
It makes me feel......like a stranger.
The way jeremy was pissed off at us. It seems unfair. But I couldn't do anything. Coz I am afraid one move on my part and I will cause the class to break up. The way the guys said about zimin. I really can't see us as a class. But I tried to hide everything. But I am afraid I won't hold on for long. It all doesn't make sense. People keep saying we are bonded, and yet to me, it doesnt seem so. Guys teasing girls. Of course, some of us are really bonded. But note the word "some". Others seem like outsiders. No matter how they tried, they cannot be inside that bond. Because of some personal feelings. And I keep thinking how I feel like I am one of them.

I dunno what is wrong with me. I feel like I have changed. Become worse. I dunno what is happening. How i treat my clique yesterday. I feel like I have become like her. I feel bad. I dunno what I am turning into. God someone help me man.

I keep saying I love welfare. I keep saying I love guides. I keep saying I love 2A.
But how do I continue to love them when some people in them hate me and dislike me and can't wait to throw me out? How do I continue to if these three groups are not even bonded together?

I want to. But I dunno how long I can hold. For now, I will just take it that I am doing all this for 2A. And I hope things will change for the better.

Now I will just have to concentrate on the elections.

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